It's been a while. Finally I've got some spare times to come here to write a few words. When I come to blogger, usually is the time that I feel exceptionally lonely. I have been waiting for today to come for so long. It's here, finally. I don't know, but I really have this mix feeling. I'm really excited but in the mean time I'm so so sad of seeing him leaving. Everyone was expecting me to cry at the airport, well, at least I expected myself would be so, but afterall I didn't. I don't know why, I am that kind of weird person you can say, when Gap left Penang for Canada, I was feeling so hard to have him to go as he is one of the best friend that I could ever asked for, and yet I didn't cry. When grandma passed away last year I was really really upset too as she always so so sayang me, and too I didn't cry. *haiya*... How I wished you could be here right now. By having your company for the past few weeks, it's making me missing you more. *sigh*..What to do, What to do?

I used to think that life is never fair. Sometimes, the amount of efforts you put in might not get you the result that you are looking for or you may even have the thoughts that it could be effortless. Today I realised that I was wrong. Life is not that unfair that we may seem as it is, we just have to learn to balance it some where. Or you can even say that life's fair, it is just the way how you seeing things. I admit that for most of the times I take things for granted. But i swear this only happen on the person I love, or else I just don't care. *aiyks* I guess I really have to learn to overcome this, well maybe I will just make this as one of my new year resolutions. *ngek ngek* Good idea.. *hehe*

A brand new year will be here in 2 days time. Frankly speaking I am still wondering what to do in the coming year...ahh..that's me..lazy ming..=p

Yay Yay! last subject of final at 3pm later... and I can go back to penang after dat...yahoo! although its kinda rush, I'm happy!! I miss penang, it's only a week plus plus but i'm already missing missing dat place...*haha*.. gonna reach penang kinda late tonite..but still got someone wanna date me!! ahaha.. these all ghost of gambling..cant wait for me to go back to play big2 n mahjong..*ming shakes head*..naughty naughty... tomorrow gonna be great too..cos gotta go shopping for pam's pressie, the other day i went to midvalley just to look for her gift n lime green shirt...in the end i didnt get her anything but i bought a lot of stuff for myself..muahaha..anyway..tmr gonna be great cos we can go pammy's birthday with everyone wearing clothes in lime green n black color. =p..we all will look...er....weird..i guess..*haha* I cant wait to see everyone..!! I'll meet up chowlih also..in one of these day..to teach her how to bake cake..muahaha..she really tot i can bake cake..nvm..we will try... then elaine n willett..nono..i miss gerron more...then..weiyong n new gf...then stupid andrew beh chimpoh...then yea..ah lik..we will wait for u to complete ur thesis n come back to pg..=p ..then who else..mona, nana, nino, n...aiyo....Puh-leeeennnn-ty la..plenty i mean...=p anyway..before i chiao...Happy Holidays everyone..*hehe*..may u guys have lots of lots of fun no matter u r having winter holidays, or summer holidays,or semester holidays, or year-end holidays..or wutever la..=p..just have fun in wherever u r..

p/s: elaine...2 weeks are not enough for u to enjoy all da penang food la..=p

The list of the songs in my play list lately:
1. Because of you - Kelly Clarkson
2. Have a nice day - Bon Jovi
3. Angels n Devils - The Click Five
4. Just the girl - The Click Five
5. Photograph - Nickelback
6. Fa Ru Xue - Jay Chow
7. Hei Se Mau Yi - Jay Chow
8. Hao Ren You Hao Bao - She
9. Tien Hui - She
10. Xie xie ni ai guo wo - She
11. Bu zhuo ni de peng you - She
12. Wen Rou - Mayday
13. Zhi Zu - Mayday
14. Believe it - FortMinor
15. Stick with you - PussyCat Dolls
16. You're Beautiful - James Blunt
17. More than words -Frankie J
18. All I want for christmas is you - Mariah Carey
19. This gift -98 Degrees
20. Where are you christmas - Faith Hill
21. Boulevard of broken dreams - Greenday
22. Dont love you no more - Craig David
23. Ying Zi - Nicky
24. Xi pai - Nicky
25. Cool - Gwen Stefani
26. Shine on - Ryan Cabrera
27. Follow Through - Gavin Degraw

That's all la..my mp3 player only can fit in these number of songs as some of the files quite big in capacity..=p you can find a few christmas songs in there as I'm already in christmas mood...haha...some songs r kinda old like boulevard of broken dreams..cos i have a few broken dreams lately.. =p..there are a few songs that i keep repeating hearing it..like.. dont love u no more by craig, beautiful by blunt, stick with u by Pcd, she's hao ren you hao bao, jay chow's fa ru xue..anyway..jaychow's november chopin album is really really good..must buy k..although i didnt buy..=p n She's new album is good too.. the fortminor album just so so although mike shinoda is in the group..=p

The very last month of 2005, another month to a whole new year. Time flies. I wonder what had I done for the past 11 months, nothing major basically. It's a bad year I gotta admit. A whole new year, a whole new me (well, hopefully).

Waiiiittttt....the photo dat i took recently dat i posted on friendster really look like wanna kill ppl mer? aiya.. at least suat ling think so...*haha*

a mix & blend of feeling.. excited n happy yet kinda sad...

Tell me I weren't dreaming for the past few days... wake me up wake me up...=p..
I was so so so happy...! =p

Anyway, final only started next week..=(
Pam, I dunno i can make it or not..but I'll try my best..
Willett n Elaine...are u guys gonna come back for summer holidays??????

天灰
如果你不再出現 我的世界 還有什麼可貴
可惜不夠時間 讓我們試驗 什麼叫永遠
想念變成懷念 心動變成心碎
偏偏還會關切 你最後屬於誰

我的天空今天有點灰
我的心是個落葉的季節
我不知道如何度過今夜
所有的燈 早已經全都熄滅
如果你從沒出現
我會不會 覺得快樂一些
可惜殘忍時間 總要把諾言 一點點摧毀

*nice song, dis song doesn't describing how i am feeling though, =p so dun think too much..

Elaine..=p
i'm thinking ar.. i wanna stop study and be a full time baby sitter for gerron..=p
i promise i'll be a good baby sitter la.. hmm..when i go back to penang i will go kidnap your son.haha
i wont la.. i will take good care of him..i'll tell him that coconut is called as banana actually.. bus is just a big car, bus just a made up name..sometimes i'll borrow porn from ted, kianlam n jamie, just to play for him to watch..hahaha..i'm just joking..=p your son will be a really really 'good boy' next time from the way i see him watching the sexy girls dancing on MTV..haha..=p

Sorry elaine.. i was just crapping.. *haha*.. willett..u'd better take good care of ur son if not..*ngek ngek ngek*....=p

HapPy BirThday

Ted Ted...HappY Birthday...Love you love you love you muacks muacks muacks muacks... Gerron..Happy birthday too..love you love you love you too..muacks muacks..my kisses very rare one..=p woohoo..you guys big boy already lo..hopefully next time when i see you guys ted will say.."ming you are so sweet.." then gerron will say..."ah ming is good.."..then probably gerron will know how to say the words i taught him last time...like" willett mummy, elaine daddy, ah gap hiao..." but hmmp... gerron already knew how to say ah gap hiao long long time ago..=p muahahaha..

Midterm sucks..Hope it doesnt dat bad as i thought... *finger crossed*

i wanna ask my mom to cane me ade... ming not being a good girl lately.. lazy like hell..haha.. accounting midterm had over..i screwd it..totally..i guess this is da first time in my life i didnt complete every part of the questions on da paper.. =(..crap..not enuff time..2 hours for 4 accounts? crazzzziiiieeee ar... nvm..i dun really bother bout accounting..grrr.. 3 more subjects coming..but i'm still lagging around..haha..went shopping..playing guitar...drawing... cleaning the huz...=p.. yea..i'm trying to learn guitar on my own..kinda hard, luckily got help from my cousie.. its addictive..dammn...i always put aside my text book n go for da guitar..=( its fun playing guitar..but my fingers hurt like hell.. i cant really feel my fingers rite now.n my fingers all are so so short, its very hard for me to reach for certain notes..haha.. n i usually playing it during midnite..like 1 or 2 am? *Shhh..SSshhh..*.. i hope the neighbours wont hear me..=p

My cousin called n told me i;ve got a mail.. was thinking is it gap or willett..*haha*..cos only 2 persons know my new add..then..then..then...hmm..it's Willett da penicillin..=p..ahh..thank you elaine n ah lett..for da desperate housewife vcd or dvd? i havent check it out yet..=p will finish it in 2 days after exam..muahaha..
Was lagging around at home yesterday when i'm supposed to study..*haha*.. then i started to dig out all da old memories.. here are some pictures..

guyz dat mean so much to me..

ok la..You too... Guyz who never failed to make me laugh.. my Girls.. you 2 are da best..for always..=)...quiny n pammy... kachuak n me high school best friends..
Shitz..i miss u guys..when r we gonna meet up again.. It's gonna be so hard for us to meet up, maybe in 5 years time? Great friends back in Inti..wynx, khyl, yewchien, Vmin, ah jen How many girls in here actually crazy over you? *hahaha* i guess only 1 person understand wut i said.. Aup-erz..Aup Rocks! Spot urself in da pic.. A piece by Willett..nice huh! =p A piece of art by "Picasso"=p My 17th birthday msg from Pam..after 4 years, still here with me =) *hehe*, my new guitar n my first one..=p My favorite- froggie freddo, love freddo with mints too..

When will the shutter bus be here? i'm damn hungry..i wanna go home..=( anyway, since everybody posting up the Seven Wonders...n since i've got nothing to do..so here's are some random facts dat you may or may not know bout me..

Seven things I plan to do before I die:
1. Graduate with a degree, at least
2. Wedding dinner in the garden
3. Own a farm that filled with Tulips, or Lili, maybe?
4. Travelling around the world with someone i close to
5. Own a child care center
6. Stay in a small island for one month, not pg of coz..=p
7. Master in one of the music instruments

Seven things I could do:
1. making ppl smile/laugh
2. talking on phone for a pretty long time
3. be very quiet until scare you out
4. be very annoying until you ask me to stop
5. cooking
6. sms pretty fast?
7. draw some really childish stuff..=p

Seven often repeated words (OR sentences):
1. haha
2.Haiiyooo..
3. Really?
4. You know wut..
5. Shitz!
6. hehe
7. dun bluff me la...

Seven traits I look for in the opposite sex:
1. hair.. i dunno y..
2. personality
3. eyes..dat can kill u..
4. attitude
5. da words dat he speaks, how good is he in melting my heart with da words.
6. style, tattoo maybe?
7. know how to make me smile and not make me cry

Seven dirty little secrets/confessions:
*would really love to keep it to myself, as it written there "secrets".haha*

Seven celebrity crushes:
1. Craig David!
2. David Tao
3. John Mayer
4. Jack Johnson
5. Gavin Degraw
6.Ron Thomas
7. Bsb..Shut up!!

Seven Current/Recent Books
1. To Kill a Mocking Bird - my birthday gift..=p
2. The Zahir by Paolo Coelho - my pressie too..=p
3. The Undomestic Goddes by Sohphie Kinsella - another pressie of mine..
4. Principles of Accouting - i think i'm gonna flung dis midterm
5. Sophies world, for da understanding of philosophy
6. Ethics by Jame Rachel - a really good book
7. Principles of management - i hardly open da book..=p

Seven Favourite Food
1. Steak
2. Vegetables, all kind
3. Lecka-lecka ice-cream
4. Lamb
5. Sup Kambing or daging
6. Fried Rice by someone
7. Mom's curry fish head

Seven Random Facts About Me
1. Being too nice to others
2. Easy to satisfy
3. Stubborn
4. Not assertive enough
5. Dumb
6. Sweet *tsk tsk tsk*
7. Procrastinator

First of all..gotta thank Mr. Ashok for making my dreams come true by changing the midterm time table..i’m one hell of a lucky girl..=p, becos of you ceo I got a chance to go back to penang! Yay!

Everyday was a wonderful day since I was back in penang on Tuesday. Been receiving loadsa surprises, birthday wishes n so on since then.. The best one is when dis guy asked me to open da car boot to get his bag for him, guess what I saw.. a guitar!!! Oh my gosh.. I was so so so pleased bout it.. it’s da guitar dat I dream bout day n nite.. thank you baby..=p *haha*..i’ll learn it with my heart n soul n my hand n fingers of cos..=p even my fingers are bleeding n the blood is splashing everywhere I’ll still holding on..=p *hahaha*.. thanks for da books n da white dress as well.. yay!! Lik..ya..i got the white dress..=p.. I’m really speechless.. really really really happy..*muacks muacks muacks*..=p

Had dis small bbq n steamboat at home for my family n relatives n friends..yea..friends..Andrew Tan Kian Lam aka beh chim poh, you gave me a really big 747 air plane..hmm..i’ll remember you..isnt dat sweet, cos I’ll remember you..=p ya, everything was great, food, ppl, birthday song was good, especially da one was sung during washing dishes time one..=p..great great..tres bien!

Then Saturday.. went to feringgi garden to have dinner with dis super duper guy (can I describe u in dis way?) *haha*.. gosh, da food is good.. I had surf n turf, n he had t-bone steak..hmm..deliciux~ anyone wanna try, I’ll bring you guys there but u gotta pay la..=p then we ordered this love boat (papaya with ice-creams on top) as my “birthday cake”..*hehe*..dannng.. I was kinda embarrassing cos when da waiter delivered us da love boat n da birthday song was played at da same time..oh my godddddd…so many ppl there..n da mat-salleh beside all started clapping n singing the birthday song for me..kinda embarrassing but I’m really really really happy bout it..*haha*..cheh, their birthday song not dat good, yours better..i dun really dare to look at you when u sing for me cos you can kill me with your eyes…*haha*.. abit exaggerated but true..*hahaha*..anyway, when you were singing it how I’d wished u quickly finish da song n I can blow da candle cos I was really blushing badly ade..=p well..thanks for da dinner..a great one! While I was typing this, I’m already back in Kl..n it’s now 00:00 oct 17th, again, you’re da first one who call me..=p..thank you…* muacks muackkkksssss..*

So..21 year-old finally..nothing really different as before.. just dat my mom didn’t nag me when she found out dat I didn’t go home last nite..=p..nothing to be proud of anyway..haha..i got da key of freedom since so long ago....i wanna stay 21 forever.. I started to have this peter-pan syndrome I guess, da syndrome dat wanna stay young forever..i mean..i dunwan to be young..but 21 is perfectly fine..=p

Oh yea..not forgetting to say thank you to all my friends..thanks for da birthday wishes..=p you guys are da best! And Suz..meow meow..Happy birthday to you too..n Samantha.. n ah yhan..happy birthday… n stupid Andrew also..wish u guys all da best..=)

幸福的瞬间。。谁站在旁边都无所谓。。因为。。在这一刻， 我感觉到好幸福， 好幸福。。终于学会了知足，知足叫我忍受心痛， 知足让我感受到快乐， 知足也让我看到了幸福。。 darkened until very cacat..haha..hope u dun mind.. dats da love boat..i look stupid..=(

This is Surf n turf...a bit messy though..=p

Da so-called t-bone steak..haha..

dis is da picture taken while i was playing with da haloween toys in toys r us..=p

Today gonna be da last blog i'm gonna post up until my midterm is over. I really really have to stop doing things dat not really important to concentrate on my exam. Midterm gonna be on 17th oct, yup, my 21st birthday, n i'm gonna have 3 subjects to test on dat day itself. How sad is dat huh? This year been a really bad year for me, nothings beengoing on smoothly. I can't even go back to pg to celebrate my birthday with my family, relatives n friends due to dis stupid exam, of all times, on my birthday..hmm!! It's only one week left and i'm only 20% prepared for da exam i guess. I'm really really worried dis time, i dunno how am i going to face da exam.. moreover, i cant even celebrate my birthday, n have to stay at home alone as my aunt will be off to kuching. Everytime i think bout dis i'm gonna screw up my whole day as i cant even concentrate on anything. arghh..forget bout it..

Anyway, these people been so so good to me.. chong seng kor kor, xiao mei jie jie, tatz, samantha.. we went to redbox at sunway yesterday to celebrate my 21st birthday and samantha 22nd birthday.. it's an early celebration for both me n samantha as her birthday on 14th n mine on 17th.. we celebrated on yesterday becos most of them will be off to sabah on 17th.. anyway it was so fun yesterday..*hehe*.. my gosh,,everyone can sing so well!! we had dinner later at this sky land restaurant. its a vegetarian restaurant...awww....da restaurant is so "pretty" n romantic..*haha*..cos when you walk in you feel like you are in Rome or somewhere in Europe..*haha*..really..no exaggerating..=p.. da food is nice n they even have this eggless cheesecake for vegetarian..so sweet! of cos we did cut our small little cutie cake there..=p..will upload da pictures later..

Thank you to - chong seng kor kor, xiao mei jie jie, samantha n tatz..you guys been so great to me!! =p thanks for da dinner and da treat in red box.. i'm really really really really happy n had loadsa fun with you guys.. hugs n kisses to you all..=)

不知道为什么不知不觉的哼起这首歌。。暧昧让人受尽委屈， 找不到相爱的证据，何时该前进，何时该放弃， 连拥抱都没有勇气。。。

I used to say midvalley is my second home, but now..*hehe*...must be replaced by Klcc..*haha*..went to klcc with lik today.. went for a drink at coffee bean n girls talk as usual..=p.. arghh.. i saw n i tried dis little white summer dress from topshop..oh my god..so sweet...i want dat i want dat..but i dun hae enough money..=(....i saw a few nice blouse, dress, skirts in Zara too...*sigh*..money not enough...

neway..i'm so happy today!! get to take picturez with dis pretty girls samantha n xiao mei.. =p

-=Xiao Mei, me, Samantha=-

-=xiao meo, me, samantha, tatz, aunty xx=-

The Froggie Freddo from you is da sweetest!! OOooOOOooOO...so happy..i have 2..one lime and one strawberry...thank you..muacks muacks muacks muacks...*not him..dun be perasan!!..anyway..a great day.. you make me smile..thank you..=)

woohoo..happy day.. morning went swimming..but da water kinda yellowish d..hmm..need to complain..

oh my god..willett loves wathing japanese porn..anime...yer yer yer..use bit torrent to download h*ntai must be..=p *dun kill me..*sorry elaine..=p

i miss jamie!! i miss pam!! i miss elaine!! i miss xiao xiao jian!! i miss wei yong!! i miss chowlih!! i miss ah lik!! i miss ah ted!! i miss andrew!! i miss quiny!! yes...dun have penicillin name..=p

ok..my day isnt dat nice and great actually. cos i realised dat i alwayz caught in da middle. like you see..i have these two friends. let say A n B..both also equally "ok" to me. but A n B like to complain to me when one of them is not around. A will talks bad bout B. n B will does da same thing. but both to me are friends. i have at least 4 or 5 pairs of friends are like dat. Its really hard sometimes, cos you really dunwan to speak ill of others n if i could i really dunwan them to say anything to me, i dunwan to listen.. so..tell me wut to do? wut to do? WUT TO DO!!.. is it becos of me being too nice or wut? is it true dat some of them are really like wut they said? do i have to open my big big eyes to look at da ppl around me? hmmm..but eventhough i found out dat he or she isnt a nice person, its not a big deal for me, i will still carry on with my smile whenever i see them, its very hard for me to hate one person..if i hate you one day, you must be really really bad n had done something really really extremely bad to me (dats y ppl always take advantage of me..since primary sch i guess...even as a monitor in class i ask them dun make noise or pass up homework, no one will listens to me..=p)..anyway..so far..there is only one person in da list.. dun ask who..if not you gonna be da second one..=p

As Willett said dat i'm actually "tua-han" already, i guess i suppose to post something more like what a big girl should write. =p..obviously i have to squeeze my brain juice and come out with something like this..*how i wish i'll spend da same amount of effortz on accouting*

People come into our lives and change it forever. There exists individuals who we wish we never met, never loved, or never hated. Then there are others who we wish we had the chance to meet, to love, and to help. Thinking back, we can`t help but recall several people who hurt us or who we emotionally destroyed. Most of the times we wish it didn`t have to be like that. Whenever we open up to let the good in, it`s like breathing a fresh breeze of air yet forgetting that there can be bacteria rushing in us. But you see, for every breath we take in, we become more alive. Thus fighting ourselves and figuring ourselves out helps us find a reason to become better people. Knowing that life in this world isn`t so perfect gives us the opportunity to pick out the sweetest details. Then, we won`t be afraid to embrace what ever tomorrow has to offer.

Everything been so slow today, to me, at least. The Lrt is slow, taxi is slow, streamyx line is slow... *hehe*.. neway..i got dis melody's friend orange sumthin sumthin soft toys from mc d. so cute..been so lazy today..nearly cry becos of accouting..cos i dunno where to start, n how to start..it's something really easy but i dunno y its like so tough for me..no wonder i never thought of being an accountant since young. *haha*.. went to swim a while in da evening, just to let myself feel fresh n alive (exagrating)..*haha*..downloaded a few albums today, namely Nickelback's All The Right Reasons, The Click Five's Greetings from Imrie House, Ryan Cabrera's You Stand Watching, Hilary Duff's Most Wanted, S.H.E's 真命天女, 梁静茹's 丝路，杨称琳's暧昧，南拳妈妈's二号餐，张智城's快乐，温岚's爱回温，同恩's找自己，金沙's空气，梁咏琪's 顺时针，蒙恩天使's感应，and there are two albums da best among so many. Which are...

BonJovi's Have a Nice day (Highly Recommended)

KanYe West's Late Registration (awesome)

Actually The Click Five not bad too..maybe it's because i like punk rock.. wanted to download desperate housewife..but its like so many episodes to download..buy dvd would be easier i guess..*hehe*

YaY! It's da beginning of October..! It's tIme to make a new wish list n to do list..

*scorez my mid-term with flying color'z resultz..
*able to swallow all da philosopherz famost quotez..
*have a clear idea wuts accounting class goin on before midterm..
*mOOOooOOore pocket money..
*sWim 5 days a week..
*a new backpack..
*BonJovi latest cd, be it pirated or original..
*Special Relationship by Robyn Sisman..
*The Zahir by Paolo Coelho..
*spend more timez with friends..especially suz n ling..
*Ted gonna hv good result on toefl..maybe 297/300..=p
*e-mail my friends more often..
*a guitar..
*able to join dance class or yoga class with 66 n 3 other pretty galz..
*able to do sumthin dat can make everyone happy..especially YOU, who r reading my blogz..
*continue to bring fun to all da classmatez with the "real" ming n lame jokez.*haha*
*receive a really pretty white lily from anyone..or maybe chanpagne-color rose, one will do..
*a yellow or orange-color sunflower too..=p
*join my cousin for singing class..
*read more..as in study more too..
*hope dat everyone around me doin fine in wutever they r doin..
*cook for my friends..
*learn to appreciate otherz more n always feel thankful..
*beach strolling with friends/gossiping by the beach/playing under da rain with frenz..
*bring my bear-bear from pg..missing him..miss touching da fur on da head..
*more mamak timez, but dun eat at mamak..=p
*visit perhentian island during holidayz..
*write more letterz n draw more picturez..
*speak good english like Gracia, who can speak english in Uk, Us, Aus, indo,m'sia slang..=p

wow..wut a long list..actually i dun hv many material stuff to wish for..i already have everything dat i suppose to have..=p.. i guess da most important wish among so many is..i wish dat i can spend more timez with you..you..you..you..n..you..=)

So many things to do, yet so little time
So many things to buy, yet so little money
So many loves dat received, yet da space in my heart is limited
So many....hmm..dunno..=p

Been really busy lately, too much works, seriously, its killing me.. i need a rest..long long rest..*haha*.. I miss *meow meow* suzanne n ling ling so much..*woof woof*..really wanna go out with you guys but my timetable kinda pack for da time being..really hope dat gonna meet up with u guys soon..maybe this sunday bangsar market? *hehe*.. sometimes i really miss those timez in Help becos of you guys, especially ling n suz, jon jon n g, n winnie (da only lecturer dat i am really missing..) *sigh*.. suzzzz..i wanna keep on meow-ing with you...*haha*..

Really happy n suprised when received msg from khai seong..woowaaa..he finally appeared dee.. never seen him since f5? he said he got caught by alien..*hmm*..nothing special bout him just dat i got "okui" dis nickname becos of him!!! hmmm..!! eh, but i kinda like this nick er..so cute, tortoise is such a cute living creatures afterall, isnt it? *hehe*

Was talking to 66 the other day bout her experience as a tutor in Us summer camp..i hope dat i can apply for da job for da coming summer next year..i'm not worry bout anything, just dat, i guess i'll be really really nervous for da interview..it seems tough..i guess i really need to work hard on english language...hmm..wutever it is, i will face da challenges confidently..*haha*..well, i'm already well-trained in this..=p

I'm in da computer lab now..as da class was cancelled..*grr*..sometimes really frustrated with these lecturers.. 66 is sleeping beside me..both of us like stupid for dunno y come to college during this time..hehe..i have presentation later, but i'm so lazy to read tru my notes..*sigh*.. show u guys a few pic on da place i'm staying now..
It took so long to upload those pic today..i dunno y.. i guess must be da server down or something like dat..ish...later go home only upload..lol..lazy to wait..=p

So.i'm back at another home..not da one shown in pic..i'm actually online-ing outside of da huz..cos i forgot my key..waiting for my cousin to come back.. it shows dat wireless line at home not a good thing..se..i can even online at outside of da huz..anyway..here's da pic..

This is da place i usually i spend my morning at...

I will spend my evening by reading in this small little hut when i wan to save electricity by not turning on the air-con.. natural air is good..haha

My bedroom..simple enough huh... the paint is combination of light yellow n baby yellow.. there's another side of my room..its not messy but hv lots of private stuff on da table n sticked on the notice board..=p

The only accessories that i brought to Kl.. kinda unbelievable huh..=p.. cos i still have 3 big boxes of stuff in pg dat gonna bring to here soon..

The living room..da sofa looks comfortable but i dun find it dat way..it is soft..but to me its not comfortable..weird..

Part of the living room.. i love this little bicycle..

Oops..there's no toilet n bathroom pic..hehe..come to my huz then i'll show u..=p..if whoever wanna come stay over let me know yea..cos most of da timez i'll be staying alone..cos aunt will always be away..i'm not lonely though..=p..but but but..no meat are allowed in both places i'm staying..=p..so if u stay with me you have to eat vege n fruits everyday..*haha*..*meow meow..suz..come stay with me! so you can run away from ur mom...haha.i'm really bad..

Tomorrow gonna be 30th, the last day of September. Lots of friends been complaining how bad n how bad about the month of September. To me, September was a great month for some reasons. *hehe*..i guess i gonna wake my friends up when september ends. =p ..anyway, Wake me up when September ends by GreenDay is a really nice song. Tres Bien!

Yesterday was a great day too.. Went to 66 huz to get our accounting homework done..while doing the works half way she suddenly told me dat.."ming..isnt it is sad dat even during my 21st birthday i have to stay at home and do this really stupid assignment.." then i was like oh my god..i totally forgot bout her birthday.. i felt really bad though, for wanted her to come n pick me up from my huz and didnt even join her for lunch.. but things got better when we went for ethics extra class..when da lecturer found out dat its her birthday, mr. ari decided to treat all of us for dinner. it was awesome. this was da first time i joined a lecturer for dinner and surprisingly i talked a lot. =p..so at the end of da day, i guess 66 was really happy n she was even happier when her bf called her..*hehe*..so sweet.. anyway, 66 is a really great girl, she is so cool, she can plays drum!!

So..my friends were saying me dat i always stay in "grey" zone, neither black or white. 66 was saying i always give good reasoning when arguing in ethics class, but everytime i surely will ended up contradicting my own point..and jeevi said i always couldnt make up my mind, said dat i couldnt just choose either being positive or negative, always has to be on da middle. Even ted said so, he said i never believed my own instinct, my own thoughts, always being skeptical on my own view. I totally agree with them, yea, i always cant make up my mind, i dunno why, its really frustrating sometimes. i guess maybe to me nothing is perfect, at some points someone might be correct but at another point someone might be incorrect. thus, its really hard for me writing a good argumentative essay during ethic class. i cant take any stand, to me, at some points, either sides have their goods n bads; isnt dat da reality ? for example, a disabled guy breaks into a house becos he needs money to take care of his mom who is very sick. so, the act is wrong, but his intention is helping his mom, can u say dat he is totally wrong? See.. things like dat always make me so confuse, dats why i am always in da grey zone. =p

*sob sob*...i dunwan go to another home...there's no line for me to go online there yet.. i dunwan to go i dunwan to go i dunwan to go...grrrr....
anyway..friendster is getting more complicated..n i dunno where to click n which to click...i wanna check my message i also couldnt find a button to click..haha..i'm like a idiot..=p.

Today, reached home pretty late..around 10pm..tired as usual..thought dat wanna continue doing my work but ended up playing around with dis pretty girl..*hehe*.. today was a great day though..get to know new friends n so on.. there was dis lecturer accompanied me to take ktm somemore..*haha*..he was talking all da way..kinda annoying..all those college politics..but me oso kaypo la..wanna know also..=p..although dis afternoon kinda pissed off at someone, in the end, my day still not dat bad though..didnt really affected by her..muahaha..instead, it was a great day..but during ethic class, i was pretty depress when i knew dat i have so many works yet to be complete...er..thinking bout dis..i guess..i have to go finish up my work...

I went back to Pg last wednesday again..of cos I went back with a purpose..my cousin sister wedding..grr..so tired..i reached Kl home at 1:30am last nite..=p So last wednesday after i reached pg (in the evening) straight away went out with friend without going home..sometimes, i think i'm being too much..=p..then thursday..woke up early in the morning to go makan hokkien mee near by my huz, hmm..yummy yummy..then went to work with friend by helping to clean clean n wash wash..fun er..tired but really run..worth it.. perhaps my life can be best described by david's tao "我喜欢".. 我喜欢这样的感觉 我只想要简单的快乐 希望和你一起拥有 轻轻松松的享受 常常欢笑 做个好朋友 我喜欢这样的感觉 我只想要简单的快乐 希望和你一起拥有 轻轻松松的享受 我喜欢开心的感觉 给好心情留一个角落 想想过去想想未来 回到最初的感动 常常欢笑 我的老朋友... =p..Its really great..i had all i want..lok lok..rojak..movies..sup kambing..roti naan..fried rice..hokkien mee..shopping..love..walk walk..work..etc etc..*haha*

Friday.. my cousin wedding...got a suprise visit before heading to alor setar, where the wedding dinner held..ooo..so happy! So, reached there quite late due to my stupid brother..ish.. during da dinner, i realised dat its been really really long since i last met most of my cousins from my mom side..a few new-born babies..they are so cute..made me feel like having my own baby only..*jealous*..=p

Saturday.. I forced myself to stay at home to finish up my readings and assignments although quiny's invitation to gurney plaza really tempting..*haha*..yay..i made it, i finally could sit down at home n study n finish up my works...then during nite i watched malaysian idols..*hehe*..nice show er..bravo bravo..it really doesnt matter to me who won it..

Sunday...woke up quite late then quiny said wanna go to gurney plaza..so we went there and had sushi at sushi king, n looked for our beloved aunt but she wasnt there..too bad..then we sat down at coffee bean n i tried to listen to her story..=p..*hehe*..then later we left for this apartment nearby..oh my god..then everything made me realised dat guys can be really a coward sometimes..frankie..i really look down on you..*ming shakes head*..disappointed..grrr..anyway, girls should be pampered n sayang n guys should listen to girls, but everything has its limit, guy should never never never be like a dog to a girl, its just so "not-guy"..*haha*..wutever it is la..ish ish ish..frankie..ish ish ish...=p.. then later, quiny had to go work n she dropped me home..n my friend picked me up to go kayu then makan then left for Kl again..so sad!

Dis is something for quiny the Oh Hoay Thua..

girl, dun revenge, its only for temporary satisfaction and it wont heal you permanently. The next guy gonna be so innocent and maybe he gonna be da guy who is perfect for you. as for the old guy, just set him free and let them be wutever they wanna be. as a buddhist i guess you should know bout karma very well.. dun let ur parents disappointed k.. i only seen dat guy twice so its not fair for me to judge him..so wutever ur decision is, we will always be here to support u, but never never revenge, it really wont ease ur pain..*hehe*..when you feel like crying, just cry it out loud..or maybe u can come to kl to look for me, i will cry together with u...no no..i wont cry..but i'll give u tissue la..or maybe we can go red box together..missing those times dat me, u, n ted dat always go to redbox right after classes in Inti..yea..we can go sing k together..or or or..maybe we can go shopping!! ask ur dad to give u extra money to shop as u need to give me some of it..muahaha...so..be happy k! It's not only me..you still have Pam the onneh, ah ying, mr yong ..hehe..lots more la..aiyo! =p

Today I missed my class as i only have 2-3 class n its really no point for me to pay 18 bucks transportation fees just to attend one class..=p i'm getting better n better in finding excuses..great! i forgot to mention dat yesterday when i went to Help i met huiling..*hehe*..ling ling u r getting prettier n prettier...really proud of u gal...u r my role model..*haha*..heard da u r preparing for da prom..all da best yea!

So..wut did i do today.. oh ya..i went to Klcc...from 2-8..amazing..i spent plenty of timez in kinokuniya reading..lots of books to buy la..aiyks..really tempting..then was walking around to look for one pressie for my friend..n n n n n i met one stranger.. girls, you guys gotta becareful when u go to klcc alone... so there was one south african guy came up n said Hi..i thought he wanna ask me bout how to get to another place from klcc..so I just said Hi la..this was our conversation.

Brian: Hi.
Ming: Hi.
Brian: Are u a japanese?
Ming: No..I'm a malaysian.
Brian: Wow..but you look like a japanese.. are you still studying..?
Ming: yea..studying.
Brian: is it a university?
Ming: Its kinda university.
Brian: I'm studying too..in a college call "Goon"??( i never heard of it n i dunno wut he was saying too)
Ming: oh ok..
Brian: Can we be friend? i'm Brian.
Ming:oh..i'm Ming
Brian: How old are you..
Ming:21
Brian: wow..but you look like 19..so cute.(aiyk. its disgusting when he said it)
Ming: no..i'm 21..
Brian: do you mind to have dinner together later? you know..i;m single..u r single..do u have a bf?
Ming: yea..i HAVE a bf..=p
Brian: oh ok...can i have your number?
Ming: sorry..i dun think its convenient for me to give you my number..maybe email add?
Brian: is it becos of your bf?
Ming: yea..sorry.. actually i;m kinda rush to another place.
Brian: ok then..hope to see you again..

Then we said bye bye la..girls, gotta be more careful when such guys approach u..cos after i left..i observed him from another corner..i found dat he started to approach another girl..well..no one know wuts his intentions...so..yea..just be smart la...i was quite dumb though..talked so much to him..=p..hehe..after i bought the pressie i walked home..grr..i studied awhile and i came across this..
Can you live a happy life if you continually do things you know deep down are wrong? There are lots of people who lie and cheat and speak ill of others. Are they aware that these things are not right--or fair, if you prefer? Do you think these people are happy?
Socrates didn't. Well, ming did not too..=)

After reading then made a call..suddenly no electricity..it was so dark in here n i was alone at home..luckily da friend over da phone keep me calm..*sigh*.. i dunno when only i will learn to be more independent..shitz..

Today the accounting class nearly makes me go insane..the credit debit thing was so confusing.. dats y i was not concentrating on lectures all da time...then i talked to da girl sitting next to me, n we become friends..*hehe*..when she was in Help, ted used to refer her as "66" girl, n this is our secret code during mass comm class..*muahaha*.hopefully she doesnt know bout dat....anyway, now in different college, friends around calling her different nick name..ppl here call her miss malaysia..*haha*..i wonder why..i need to find out still..oh yea..the accounting class was so damn sienz so me n 66 started to take out our food to eat..she ate a peach, n i shared with her my chocolate cookies..haha..then i took out my notebook to write nonsense...here was something i had written on my book...

a drunken guy

When you're drunk,
every words you speak, you speak with nobility.
and your eyes look exeptionally sexy.
When you're drunk,
every movements of yours are so gentle.
and your voice sounds deep and mature.
When you're drunk,
your singing is so good n it makes me cry
and looking you in dat way it certainly makes me wanna fly high.

*haha*..crapz..i dunno wut am i writing too..=p.. this is da proof dat how boring da accounting class is..=p

while waiting for call (well, dats an excuse..=p..actually i'm just lazying around..i'm so lazy..i'm gonna be dead if i dun start doing my assignments)..i'm here to write something..

If money can buy love, I rather dunwan any love..If material love can last long, I'll chop down my head and let you sit on it...If money really can buy love, why do you need to put so much efforts n timez in love?..If money can buy love, those wealthy uncle will have no difficulity in finding lady and Bill Gates certainly can dates million gfs at one time..=p

Recently, i'm really really sick you know..i have this really really terrible sickness..i have short-term memory lost..It's only takes 5 seconds for me to forget something..really..i guess i need to see doctor..its getting worsen..i'm worry of cos..=(

I'm so sO so 幸福 (xing4 fu2)today..yea..幸福..i dunno wuts da english word for this. I checked on dictionary, its written there "hapiness", but i dun think its da exact word i'm looking for.. anyway..sitting in my dream car today was so great..n looking out from da car n found dat so many ppl get married on mooncake festival..well..last week was my cousin brother engagement party..n this coming week my cousin sister is getting married too.. I used to dream n talk n plan alot about my wedding day..but recently i re-thought bout this, is marriage dat important? I mean is it necessary to get married? I thought bout this during the ethic class when da lecturer ask us to write an essay on why should we or should we not get married.. oops..my mind was blank..i found no reason to get married n i found no reason not to get married. *haha*..well, i mean, wuts da point getting married when you can stay with your love ones happily under one roof even without getting married, and girls always dream bout their wedding day cos they will be treated like a princess on dat day..but you can be a princess or can be treated like a princess everyday if your bf are sweet enough to do so for you..*hehe*..

So I am back from Penang again after so many days..*hehe*..its really fun...I met 4 new friends..they r my "sensei", molly, nino, and nana..muahahaha..they are really cute though..*wink wink*...n now i have more friends..haha..=p during this trip i learned a lot of new stuff..my sensei taught me bout philosophy, ethics, n accounts..well..i'm a dumb dumb student..and i realised dat an intelligent guy or a guy who speaks or talks intelligently can be so attractive..yup..attractive..=p.. again..me mom cook curry fish..pam said da maggie goreng in taipan is best in the world..then to me my mom curry fish is best in da world...=p..its really really good..no doubt bout it..*hehe*..then wut else happening in pg..oh yea..this guy keep on asking me what i want for my 21st birthday..grrr...i really wish for something money cannot buy..=p..yea..i;m dat greedy..*ngek ngek*..dats all for tonight..i'm tired to type..haha..i'm tired but i'm happy! =p

I was told by someone dat I only have one friend in Penang.*LOL*...oh my gosh..I'm so pitiful..yea...I'm dat kesian la...=p..anyway..can't wait for tomorrow to come..*hehe*..yay yay yay yay!!..oh yea..was so glad dat I found a friend to take Lrt n Ktm with me to class.. i'm not lonely anymore...*hehe*..wonder why life've been so good lately..*ngek ngek*.. =p

I never knew that I'd love this place so much. I never knew that I'd miss this place so much. Until the past weekend, I only realised dat I dunwan to leave this place, it's a place dat so great to stay in, I feel so protected staying there, I feel so warm living there, I feel like been *sayang* by everyone during back there.. *hehe*..n not forget bout my family n friends there..n also my aunt n uncle dat brought me to red box..n da sup kambing n my mom's cooking..*hahaha*..yup yup, dats da place dat I wish I can go back more often....---> Penang!!

Hate those people dat look down on people when the people doesnt rich anymore... it's a behavior dat should be punished..i do believe in karma dat one day they will be punished by god..

Today is my very first day in IGS..hmm..nothing special..lots of Help students there, so basically know most of them..da worst thing is..they r all those smart ass when they were in Help..sigh..i need to work harder then.. first class was accounting principle..grrr..i hate accounts, so damn boring..then management class..da lecturer with strong american slang, but da way he teach like a tortoise..then philosophy class..i was late for class..when i just stepped in, da lecturer said..hey girl, you r late for class, i want to know what do you think of life..omg..i was quite for 5 sec, then ronan keating suddenly came across my mind..then i replied to him..sir, life's like a rollercoaster, ups n downs, good times n bad times, no matter what, life goes on..then he said..good good..have a sit please..Phew..~ luckily..thanks to ronan keating..haha.. =p.. my class was from 1pm to 8 at nite..no break in between..muahaha..i'm god..=p..

-Joke-

(This little boy was looking at his friends drawing.)
Boy: Why is an ass face with boobs?
Boy 2: Because she is a bitch.
Boy: How about this? why is an ass face with a dick then?
Boy 2: Ohh..Thats because he is son of a bitch..
Boy: ........

*hahaha*

*...Lots of Great Timez together...*

Just got back from Pelita mamak in Jalan Ampang..went with cousie n we walked there cos its pretty near to our place as we just stay behind nikko hotel..guess wut we saw when we walked back.. while we were walking pass the citibank, there were 2 security guards sitting outside of da bank...both are guys ok..then we saw one of them grabbing the other's balls..*wink wink*...muahaha..keep on grabbing n touching u know..Eew..so so sick of them..we wanna laugh but hmm..we control..control ourselves...*haha*...n my cousie was whispering to me like..ming dun look dun look.. but..i cant help it..i just look la..come'n..who doesnt want to look? *haha*...Eeeeeewwwwwwwww....wut happen to citibank's workers???

...I'm in LOVE with Jack Johnson... been listening to da songs again n again n again. It did help me to "heal" my really stressed mind and body *hehe*.. Woke up early in da morning like maybe 8? agg, my cousie alarm kept on ringing for almost 2o times, its really really noisy. Besides, i got fever, didnt tell anyone as hmm..i dunno..So woke up n continue doing da shifting huz thingy...dust dust n dust..aiyks...While moving stuff i met dis white guy, took da same elevator with me n went into da same huz with me then only i realised he knows my aunt..a really good looking guy..but later i found out dat..hmm..he got a korean gf staying upstair..n recently his gf got pregnant..i was like..wth..hmm..ok ok..its so lucky for him..*hehe*..so later went to dis new huz n found dat there r lots of pretty gals n my neighbour is a korean family..great, so i can get to know more ppl later..*ngek ngek*..then tok on fon with dis guy, sorry 2 make u angry, perhaps u know y i keep on questioning, sigh, wutever, maybe dis is da chance n time u've given me n hope dat i'll change...after done da works in new huz then came back here. my aunt who is a cosmetic surgery doctor, have lots of clients today... seeing those pretty girls come here n hoping dat they will go back with even prettier face, make me wonder y ppl always ask for more n never got satisfied. Hmm, wutever, but seeing everyone come out from da room with a satisfied look then i feel happy for my aunt too. *yawn*..really really tired today, just finish da cleaning job, grr, lots of exercise though...hehe..now enjoying my sweets dat got from someone, it's exceptional sweet becos its from u..muahaha...anyway, so sorry to those friends dat i didnt reply to u guys msg for these 2 days, been really really tired n busy n lazy, haha, got lots of excuses one..oh yea, my cousin was telling me this, got excuse no success, no excuse got success...hahaha

Today been so crap..crap crap crap..and i'm mad mad mad...damn tired n stressed..*sniff sniff*..

-My Daily Boring Life-

I'm so tired today, exhausted..woke up early in da morning (thanks 2 someone 4 waking me up..muahaha), slept at 3 last nite as waiting 4 ppl to call..but i guess i didnt sleep quite well as I started to have home sick, although the bed here is way much comfortable than the one at home..i dunno y i always find dat cheap mattress is more comfortable than those freaking expensive one, like da one in Spb..*hehe*.. So woke up n took a bath n went to my aunt new huz, its still under renovation, its some where in kuchai lama, damn near to ted;s aunt huz, although this place is like so damn far from college, i love the place though, with big n nice swimming pool, fresh air, nice trees, nice view, etc etc..*haha*..after dat aunt drop me at midvalley ktm, dats when all those spooky n freaky stuff happens..She dropped at a place dat got no entrance to da Ktm station..so I have to walk across into one of the midvalley parking lot..while i was crossing da road i almost met an accident..i didnt notice well enough there was a car dat came to my way so so fast, n it was raining heavily dat time, so i just ran n cross da road, while i was crossing half way i only realised dat SHIT i will get knock down if i dun run faster, so i speed up my pace, well, too bad, i fell down, luckily da car did stop immediately, so i faster stood up n walked into da parking lot while da car driver kept on honking me..*idiot*..well, i'm saying myself..*haha*.. so i finally managed to get in to da station n headed to da destination, which was serdang. Damn, was raining heavily when i reached there, so i talked on fon pretty long to wait for da rain to stop. when da rain stop i asked da ppl there how to get to South City Plaza, n da person was like "Walk? jauh sangat la.." so i took a taxi n it took me 5 bucks for such a short distance. Then go tru da registration stuff n took a ktm back to midvalley. Been walking in high heels for whole day. Although it;s tiring, da journey today have gotten me come to realise that I was so strange to this place, KL. I didnt really come to appreciate n notice n learn about dis place in the past one year, I realised dat i have neglected so much bout this place, been concentrating too much on studies n my love life. So, today was sitting inside da train (dis was my very first time!) observing da ppl around, its really interesting to look at ppl like wut r they doing n stuff..*hehe*..So dats all 4 today..it's almost 9, i have to wait 4 my aunt n cousies 4 dinner..we gonna have vegetarian steamboat..yummy yummy....

-sOme words been running around my brain-

You've been asking me what i want for my 21st birthday, if i could wish for something from you, i hope you dun lie anymore, it's aint cool..really..=)..anyway..i know wut to get u for ur 21st birthday..if i can do it, i'd be really happy for myself too..=p..its strange n weird u know..i know how much u care for me, like yesterday when u sending me off, i can see it from ur eyes (a bit perasan d..haha).. you know wut..aiyks..i better dun write it here..=p

-Wish List-

umbrella can be folded one

the billabong sch bag (although i dun like aussie stuff..haha)

an intelligent mind -muahaha

The Zahir by Paolo Coelho

I love this picture so so so much...like we are advertising for KFC..muahaha..anyway..yup..elaine n pam..we had lots of fun!!! but if with u guys around sure we will have more fun..=p

Best Mom Award goes to.....Jamie's mom...woohooo...

I met him the other day at gurney plaza. I'm kinda surprised when I dun see any girls beside him. I mean, he was alone. And I was alone too. I was window shopping while waiting for my aunt after work. Then i saw him at 2nd floor? but I didnt approach him, instead I quickly hide myself by walking into FOS immediately. I dunno why I did that, I was shy to see him I guess as it;s been some times since the last time I met him. So, I am surprised that he did not bring any girls along with him. *haha*..Well, I'm not exceptional happy for not seeing any girls with him, just dat it;s just weird...Cos he is always good in "sweet-talking", so many girls die on his hand..yup..i was one of them..damn..well, we used to be really good friends, seldom meet, always chat online, he treated me like someone special, but due to he always have lots of girls around him so he asked his best friend to take care of me when he is not around..so, as times went by, I talked to his friend more than him. Although we seldom chat or meet up, every meeting with him will always makes my day. So..there was one day.. he asked me whether wanna visit a famous chinese temple in penang with him, he said he got something to talk to me..weird..y not on da fon or icq, then of cos i didnt go with him..muahahaha..So when we chat he asked me to be his gf, i said yes wihout much thinking..well, was too young n naive back then..haha..Ever since we were together, we only met once, not even went out, dats even worse than we were friends. We met only once outside my sch during valentine's day..i dunno y, everytime he asked me out i refused to go, it;s just weird, weird n weird..=p..days by days...after 3 months...he seldom call me...then later he didnt even call..n i didnt call him too...so i assumed dat it;s a sign of break up..well, i was not sad or upset or disappointed at all..i guess dats not "love" kua..haha..cos i dun have any special feeling for breaking up...moreover, none of my friends know we were together either..only his friends knew bout it..funny huh..=p wutever la...then we met up when he joined our tuition class, at first he was shy to talk to me, but after he knew i'm totally ok bout it then we become good friends like we used to be again...but things changed again when we step into college life, we went into different path of life n since then we seldom chat until today we almost lost contact....*sigh*

from hui ling journal..

things that are unreachable are the most beautiful things...

well, i used to agree with this..but recently..i dun think so..i guess it's more like a phrase dat keep us feel "good" or a phrase dat comfort us when we cannot get something dat we wanted to get..*hehe*..anyone agree?

woohoo..i'm back..i'm doin this for elaine again..cos i know she is sien sien in perth..=p elaine..i'm here bugging your hubby n ur baby..haha..no..i'm actually here to see whether he is noti noti or not..=p so..it;s been a month in penang i guess..but most of da timez i'm not staying at home..it;s either aunt huz, friends huz, or kl..yup..i went to kl last week for 3 days...then last tuesday i went there with friends again..it shows dat i'm not sick with kl still..haha..nah..it's not becos of my friends i wont be there..=p i had lots of fun with them lo..seriously..hehe..but da weather in kl suck a big time..

I am happy becos

my friends are always there for me

I received gummy bears from xiao xiao jian

get to go to kl with my best friend, good friends..

get to eat good foods in penang..

got someone who cares for me so much..

learning new stuff everyday..

filled with loves everyday....

get to start an independent life soon..

I am sad becos

i miss da dogs at gap huz..

i dun get to talk on fon with sean dat much..

hotlink eat my money...haha

i miss da timez in college studying..

dats all dats all..life should be carefree n fun..nothing worth to be sad of..=p

bilibala bilibala...here;s something for u to read elaine..=p..i know u r damn boring here..muahaha

I'm back lo, yup, back in penang. it;s been 8 days. lets see..last saturday, meet up gap n andrew in ali, so sorry andrew for making ur car dirty..aiyks..*malu*..sunday, dinner with ted;s family, his dad now can sing better n better..woohoo..monday..tuesday..wednesday..thursday..friday..saturday..sunday..i cant really rememeber wut had i done..but i guess my life been revolving around penang's food, ted, gap, andrew, elaine, willett..yea..dats all..haha..damn boring rite..grrr..think so..someone please come n rescue me..i'm dying in penang..i'm in willett house now..with elaine beside..both of us got nothing to do..so pitiful..stupid willett is playing piano downstair..its getting annoying..haha..=p..i;m waiting to go to thailand..aghh..missing the fried chicken there..n other food as well..too bad cannot go to angkor wat with gap..=(..i wanna travel so badly..staying at home make me start thinking of useless stuff..ergg..but i;m tired of crying..i realised dat it pointless pleasing ppl now..i guess start from now like wut gap said i should just please myself, put myself in the first priority (isnt dat YOU want me to?)..but sometimes, i feel like this is kinda selfish, irresponsible, like what i think YOU are now..=).. sometimes, i think dat life is so meaningless..but when i look at my friends when i think of them, they make me feel dat there's still hope in this damn freaking lonely planet..haha..neway..really gotta thank gap..always be there..thanks for scolding me n waking me up, but those words i have came across thousand times, yup, like pam said, mind over matter, i have to stop lying to myself..=(..n sean, i should;ve listened to u earlier, yup, it hurts so badly rite now..*sigh*..guess i will be stupid no more..enough is enough..yup..so i'll start bugging all my friends rite now..=p.. so today willett n elaine will be the first victim..muahaha...=p..*thinking inside my heart..willett..stop playing da piano..i cant concentrate here, stop playing dat stupid Hero song, there's no hero in my life..=p*..ish..wondering why gap goes to kelantan, maybe there's another big big field like padang polo..haha..

leaving KL soon..pretty soon..ya..it's on friday..to all my KL frenz, i'm leaving..to all my Penang frenz..i'm coming home!! busy packing these few days (ted must be saying..Ya rite..=p), well, i'm afraid ted's car will not be having enough space for my stuff n his stuff..while i'm packing things, i'm like..WUT? i really have this much of things ar...yup..*die*..i guess da first thing when i reach home, mom gonna kill me for seeing dat i actually have dat many pairs of shoes..not many really..it's only about 30 something pairs there..=( 3 big pillows, 2 bolsters, 5 small ikea pillows, 2 comforters, bedsheetS...2 luggages and a basket of clothes..and the list go on...anyway, ted..u got lots of stuff too la! =p

I guess i'm gonna miss most of my frens in KL..hui ling..suz..jon..g...they r always my best pal in college..ling ling...really appreciate the times dat u actually tried ur best to cheer me up, cook me porridge when i'm sick..buying me gift all the timez, even on me n ted;s anniversary..=p..jon, thanks for always fetching me to class, seems dat you always got interupted by me when u r sleeping..missing those days dat we always hang out together..sunday market especially...*hehe*..gunbound days..=)..suz..well..u r da smart girl, meow meow..woof woof..i guess i'll be missing da timez dat we gossiping together..u showed me dat u really care n i really really appreciate it..u help me on my work, n u help me on my probs..u r such a sweet girl..=)..G..*haha*..i didnt forget u after da design class..=p..thanks for picking me up all da timez..u r such a sweetie to ur gf n ur frenz..glad to know u..=)..of cos not fogetting SEANy..=p..i'll surely miss da timez dat we spent countless nitez on phone talkin n talkin..well, u make me laugh..n u make me smile...u should be proud of this, k? cos i barely smile n laugh these dayz..n i'm start missing ur voice, ur jokes, i guess? it;s gonna be hard for me n u to tok when i;m back in Penang..phone bill sucks..i guess its gonna be like those times back in my high sch timez..=p

hmm..not forgetting my housemates here in 8B..sweet, sour, bitter..i guess we experienced it all..though most of our relationships are fading, but i guess deep within our hearts, we surely care for each other still..missing those times back in last year..things started to change since this year..things change..people change...this is life..isn't it? i'm missing those "seniors" in the house, yam hiah, wai sin, xiao ming, han fei..they're always like my big sisters..joanna, i miss those nitez dat we chat non-stop everynite until 4 or 5 in the morning..elyn..u too..chatting with u r fun too, da perhentian trip gonna be unforgettable, hope dat you learn to see things out of a box, dun always think dat ppl r bad to u, just dat we need timez to know a person, afterall you earn a good friendship from yam hiah, isn;t it? oh ya, missing the nitez we went clubbing altogether..=).. delonia, janice, judy...too bad dat i dun have enough time to get to know u guys well, i surely miss a lot of good stuff from u guys.. ally, i dun really know u well, really, but thanks for being there, i understand ur situation, being a roomate with hue yeen, it;s hard dat i can tell u all my stuff..so..hope u understand...lastly, hue yeen..i dunno..i dunno how much u still believe in me..but i dun really care..we used to be such a good frenz to each other but things change..but my mind is still clear enough to differentiate between love n friendship..yea, i have to admit dat sometimes i really really hate you, but sometimes, i do think dat i cannot judge you becos of this shitz, cos we used to be such a good frenz, n i surely know how good u r when we r frens...u said u cry for me..although i seem like i dun care, well, it;s not true..if u do read my blog, u should know dat i care n when i;m writing this, tears are dropping from my eyes, cos i know dat i lost a good fren n i lost a bf..been trying to rescue this frenship, but i dunno u ever realised dat..just wanna say dat if only me one person dat wanna rescue this friendship, it'll never gonna work..it need 2 person, you n me..=)

Phew..~ enough of soppy soppy stuff...been going visiting around KL these days..ted..thanks a million, for bringing me everywhere dat i wanted to go..never said i dun appreciate it cos u dunno how much i appreciate it deep down inside my heart..i tot u r the only one can read my heart, but u didnt..so sad..=p..well..i'm sure we gonna miss da late-nite yau cher hor, burger king, ali maju, movies...everything..*hehe*...well..leaving on friday, but i'll be back for da university application stuff, so i guess i will be meeting up my frenz here in Kl again..=)

Today...my energy meter in friendster..is full again..

-summary-
The Bottom Line
Yes, this is a super day, you're a super babe, and you've got super powers!
In Detail
If anyone knows how wonderful relationships can be, it's you. Of course, you're also familiar with how equally difficult they can be when one party -- or worse, both -- won't compromise. Just such a situation is currently playing out before your very eyes, giving you only one option: to either become directly involved and give it your all to help, or to categorically bow out, which has never been your style.

i miss you..no..i dun miss you..ya..i miss you..no..aiyks..i dunno..everything is so confusing...i miss you when only i need you..no..certainly not so...aiyks...i dunno..

so you dun believe me...even just a phone call..you never trusted me after all..do you? yea..i'm da girl dat pretending all the time..other girls are just so innocent, they dun lie, they dun fake it, they are so real...=)

been thinkng a lot lately..about a few terms..they make me confuse...so confuse..

*love* is true love exists? wut is love? is it worth being stupid for love? love is blind?
*possession* wuts da characteristic of being possessive? wut makes you think one person is being so controlling?
*decision* wut makes a good decision? when you make a decision, who do u think of first? yourself? or others?
*truth* are we supposed to tell the truth to the one you trusted? the one they considered themselves as your "friends"?
*Lies* is every intentionnally false statements considered as lies? or is there big lie and small lie?
*trust* should we trust the person you trusted blindly? why we should trust another person that doesnt believe in you?
*selfishness* should we consider for others? or concern chiefly with one's own personal profit or pleasure?
*pity* is it worth pitying someone that dont appreciate you at all?
*regret* living in regret? or never lived in regrets?
*revenge* by doing this is it will bring you hapiness?
*hapiness* wut can makes a person happy? are we really happy even we wear a smile on our face?
*fairness* is Libran always look for fairness? should one person treat you equally without favoritism and discrimination?
*friend* who makes a good friend of yours? who only can be considered as a friend of you?

Living in confusion...being stupid for love...so sweet...yet...so bitter..

Another thought..dun pretend like u r an innocent when u r not..

Missing the time in Bukit Tinggi...=)
Thank you...Gap..for being the driver..
Thank you...Andrew for having the idea to go there..
Thank you...the rest..for tagging along..*haha*

Suat, good luck on the new job n take care urself in Uk..hehe,..all da best..hope to see u soon..*muacks*