You know...

It's been 10 days since my last final paper in my entire university life. I am finally graduated with a bachelor degree of Psychology. In fact, I do not feel excited at all. I tried to keep myself busy for the past week. First, I moved out from the dorm. I am now staying at this kind-hearted friend's room, who is willing to let me sleep over while he is holidaying in Texas.

I really did not do much thing lately. I feel some kind of depress you know. Like going through another phase of life. Having this life transition thingy. =_= I feel lazy often. I hardly picking up phone call, even phone calls from the closest friend of mine. I did not reply call either. I have to think of my future, which I tried to do a lot lately. For the first few days I felt really miserable, as I did not have a clear idea or direction where to go to start my career. I was kinda lost myself between Oregon and Chicago. I have to see the pros and cons of both places. I have to watch out my budget. I have to see which is the best for myself. In the end, I managed to decide to go Oregon for the time being. I did a lot of surveys online, I guess Portland will be a really nice city to stay in.

So I chose Oregon and I upset myPet as he was hoping we can go to Chicago with him and Yvonne. =( I miss them. Anyway, Airene and me decided to go to Maryland to attend HuiLing's graduation and also a short trip to NewYorkCity before flying to Oregon. This is a pretty interesting plan as the fly ticket is even cheaper than the one-way ticket to Oregon from Minneapolis. *heeHee* I can't wait to go NewYork!

Apart from that, I tried to look for jobs online. I found a few jobs that I really like but I did not manage to send out my resume. I don't know I just feel that my resume is super lousy. =_= I have been flipping through the book on interview techniques, but I don't think I absorb any. Tell me what to do....!!!

This morning I woke up being emo all over again. =_= I think equality in a relationship is very very important. It's just doesn't seem to work if one person is loving another person more. It's not about who is giving in more or what. To me love isn't love until you give it away, it is not as simple as by just saying 'i love you' to someone you love everyday, it is definitely more than that. Ok, I should have stopped thinking about all these and should have just concentrated on my job seeking and stuff. Zhu asked me don't think too much. But I just can't help it you know.

Ok whatever. I decided to give my blog a new look. Well, not many changes, I just feel that White is-the-new-black now. I had a fruitful day today. I cleaned the room, I read a bit, I looked for job, I wrote letter, I blogged, I sent e-mails, I cooked, I baked, I took a really long shower and putting scrub and mask all over, I pretty much do everything I should do.

And now, I miss home. I miss papa and mummy. I miss korkor. I miss Suzan and meimei.

My Kind of Christmas

This Christmas was not that lonely after all. LeeNa prepared really good food for all of us who were still in Bemidji on Christmas Eve. Look at the pictures, yummy food.

Ai-Tan & Me, I can't wait to go Oregon with her. =)

Spent my Christmas playing Scrabble in Steve&Bonnie's House.

I Love You. Can you hear me? I say I Love You!

Straight 5. Another board game. I use my brain a lot lately.

Went sledding at somewhere behind Steve&Bonnie's yard. The slope is very steep!

Me all smiling. Am ready to go~

Megan. She is too small to sled. She just sat there and look like a statue. So cute!

Standing beside Patrick always makes me look so short. =(

My American Family. Steve&Bonnie and the grandchildren. I am gonna miss them badly when I leave Bemidji. After all they have been like my family while my stays here. They really take good care of me and all of the international students here. I love them a lot a lot.

Megan was showing me her nose and her tummy.

My favorite boy of all time. Aaron! The other day I said to him "You're American". He replied "No, I am not, I am Aaron!"

This is very random. A small part of the screen shot on my desktop. Waiting patiently for you, you, and you to come online. =)

Basically, I spent my Christmas with my Family Friends, and I definitely enjoyed myself a lot. I had good food. I had good company. I sled. I played. I sang. I smiled. I ate.
That's my Christmas. How about yours?

(:

*~Merry Christmas~*

Have yourself a very berry Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.. May you have another blessed and joyous year. Mwahz!


**I am going sledding now~ =p

Kid Nation

Have you guys heard of this reality show about kids rebuilding the Bonanza Town?
Check this out. It earns my tears. They are all smart and adorable...

Read more about it here on CBS:

http://www.cbs.com/primetime/kid_nation/

or watch the episodes in YouTube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8VYQyjRrnnI&feature=related

Taggies

Name 20 people you know..anyone..close or not close to you also can..

1. Edwin
2. Pam
3. Natalie
4. Zheng Bin
5.Randall
6. Lil' Gap
7. Wee Jian
8. Wei Yong
9. Ted
10. Lik Chuen
11. Wynx
12. Chloe
13. Yvonne
14. Airene
15. Anthony
16. Shirley Boon
17. Suat Ling
18. Rishant
19. Gary
20. Delvin




*How did you know 14 ? ::Airene::
- Met her in Help Uni College, then get to know her better when I come over US (especially the last 2 months to be precise)

*What would you do if you never met 1 ? ::Edwin::
- I wouldn't know so much about Sabahan and I wouldn't be as loved as now. =p

*What would you do if 9 and 20 dated you ? ::Ted and Delvin::
- Ted : oh. we dated. end of story.
- Delvin : he only loves xiao mei mei. i mean little girl la.

*Would 6 and 17 make a good couple ? ::Lil' Gap and Suat Ling::
- wahaha.. I am sure they thought of it before. =p

*Do you think 8 is attractive ? ::Wei Yong::
- sure sure. especially his eyes. sexiness.

*Do you know anything about 12's family ? ::Chloe::
- I know I know!! we have similar family background. well, kinda.

*Tell me 3 things about 7 . ::WeeJian::
- a good friend of mine. nice people. we are under family plan for our phone. =p

*What is 18's favourite pastime ? ::Rishant::
- errrrrrrr.......i dunno ler..maybe hanging out with all of us.. =p

*What language does 15 speak ? ::Anthony::
- Mandarin, Hakka, Cantonese, English

*Who is 19 going out with? ::Gary::
- I hope it's Evelyn still...=p

*How old is 16 now ? ::Shirley Boon::
- she always looks like she is 18. =)

*What are the 2 common interests you share with 13? ::Yvonne:
- She always says 'damn you', i always says 'go die la you'. =p

*Who's 2's favourite singer ? ::Pam::
- She likes everyone! We like listening to Preston and Laurence

*Would you date 4 ? ::Zheng Bin::
- Yea..if only I am a pig too....

*Would you date 17 ? ::Suat Ling::
- I am a girl. She is a girl. you say ler?Movie date can la...

*Is 15 single ? ::Anthony:
- er..no woe...

*What is 10's last name? ::Lik Chuen::
- Neoh..

*Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11 ? ::Wynx::
- hmmm..he is a good looking guy er... but no lo..=p

*Which uni does 3 go to ? ::Natalie::
- Bemidji State Uni...same as me la.

*Where does 6 come from ? ::Lil' Gap::
- Penang! yay!

*What do you like about 5 ? ::Randall::
-He is dumb dumb which makes me like him.

moving

Sometimes I am amazed by myself.

2 big luggages. 1 small luggage. 8 big boxes. 3 small boxes. 1 basket. comforter + blanket + pillows. Moving out from the dorm could be easy. I do not want to imagine when it's time for me to move to other state. =_=

Season of separation

My last few days in Bemidji. Everyone is leaving. Like punya-sad-lo...=(
Anyway, a lot of random pictures.

At Nat's Birthday. I hope Chole's bf doesn't read my blog. =p

I like this picture. During Deepavali gathering. I wonder what were they looking at.

My new shoes. Behind.

The side. It's super comfy.

Can you believe it is just $11.50 for one Nike shoes?? It's just about RM40 only!!

I saw this the other day at Target. Cutness!

Went to see sunrise this morning with my pet and Yvonne. This picture was taken on the Lake Bemidji.

Same shoes. Different color. Same dirtiness.

At Nat's Hello Kitty birthday. Silly me.

I'm blessed again, and again. =)

When I receive this, I don't know I should be happy or sad. Happy because of the cutie drawing. Sad because mypet is leaving!!

Nat. Me. Mypet

Take a break. My Margarita.

Nat & Airene. Prettiness. Just ignore me.

She always looks so pretty!!

Nat: "Eh where is my drink-la.." Airene: "huh? huh? what happen, I don't know-ler" =p

MyPet left already!! sadness.

What is Chloe thinking la??

Same old boring place. Same old happening friends!

They finally left this morning. =( I feel so lonely in Bemidji now.

*punya*

When I was in primary school, every time I write Malay essay, I definitely have to use this word ---> "Punya"

For example: Saya punya abang sudah kahwin.

I know the way Penang people talk ar, a little bit weird la. They have to combine chinese + malay + english whenever they speak. But I don't remember we use "punya" in our sentences.

Lately I noticed that a lot of Sabahan they use a lot a lot a lot a lot of "punya" in their conversation. And their "punya" have different meaning. It means 'extremely'.

These examples taken from what DelvinC have said in the past (not only him la, many many of them use this word before).

"I punya lonely", "I punya happy-lo today, I get to go shopping"

So I learned something new-lo. I think-ar this word kinda cute la.

You know what. Today I suddenly feel myself punya old and punya stupid, then-ar I become punya sad- lo!!

=p

Home

I want to go home.
Because I miss home.
So let me go home.

"Home-Michael Buble"

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Your shoulder

I have goosebumps every time I listen to this song.
It walks me down to memory lane.
This song brings me back to the time when I was staying in Subang and Emerge'06.
I still remember I played this song over and over again to show how much I love this song, while Pamela likes the other song "Lost" in the same album.

Every time I listen to this song I think of my family. It's their shoulder that I have always depended on. The other day talked on phone with mom and papa, got to know that they went for a medical check up. It's good to know that they are health conscious and I love to see that they are always do things together. And then my brother, I found out that he viewed my friendster profile via his friendster account. lol. Oh, and my both sisters did the same thing too! I love their kaypo-ness over my life. =p

Somehow in some way, this song makes me think of Edwin's sister. I remember the time we sang over and over again in the car when I was in Sabah. Then Edwin's mom, she always makes me feel loved by taking the initiative to talk to me and care for me. I am glad that I have another shoulder to lay on whenever I need someone to talk to.

And lastly.. I guess the lyrics of this song rather suitable for him. It's the messages that I want to deliver to him. Nah, for u la PHD. =p

Sun Ho - 你的肩膀

那些日子当你不在我身边
整个世界都不对哦
还能这样安静的和你依偎
受过的苦都无所谓哦
进进退退我们之间
故事有点迂回
轰轰烈烈哭过几回
从来没有后悔

依靠着你的肩膀
有风的味道也有雨的沧桑
为我去过了远方
还好爱是我最固执的地方
还好再长的夜总是会天亮
我终于等到你回来身旁哦

爱就是你的肩膀
能负担我的所有快乐悲伤
相信你许下的愿望
一辈子的时间那么的漫长
何必在乎当初寂寞多荒凉
我们的幸福会在下半场

为我去过了远方哦~
相信你许下的愿望

A glass of green tea at 1:30am

I love organic green tea. It makes me sleep. =_=

I am in the middle of writing a paper.

I am running out of brain juice.

I am hoping this glass of hot green tea will keep me awake this time.

I am having tight tight tight tight schedule for these 2 weeks.

Take a look.

To be more precise,

Dec 6: Hand in Research Lab Essay + Whole Semester Activity Log Mock Interview at Career Services Center
Dec 7: Work from 2pm to 2am
Hand in presentations critique x 5 of it
Dec 8: Work from 2pm to 2am
Dec 9: Christmas Concert performance at 3pm and 6pm
Dec 10: Cognitive Psychology Final Exam
Dec 11: Hand in paper on Yoga History + Pros & Cons of Yoga Class + Daily log for whole semester
Dec 12: Chinese class exam (wth)
Dec 13: History & System of Psychology Final Exam (This one no kidding, have to study more than 20 chapters of dead people, and I haven't even touched the text book, yay to myself!)
Dec 14: Hand in Cognitive Psychology Research Proposal (Haven't even read the past research or journals =_=)
Dec 15: Fitness class Final Exam
Hand in Article Critique as final assignment on Fitness topic

I seriously don't know how lo. =_= Compared to last semester, last last semester, last last last semester, I did not procrastinate that much lo. But somehow I still screwed up the time management la.

Oh, and today I had two presentations. Was bad. First, I had a lot of confidence during the presentation for cognitive psychology, because I prepared a very very pretty and sweet presentation slides, and somehow the projector screen just had to play trick on me, geram only, so my slides did not projected nicely. Then the next presentation on Skinner the dead person during Psychology History & System class, I had carried over effect from the last presentation, so I just simply presented the whole presentation. =_= But later, I regretted, cos I only realized that it was my last chance to do a good presentation in my university life. Argh. Screw it. Too late already.

I hardly sleep lo lately. I usually catch a nap during day time after class. If I didn't answer your phone call or your Msn messages, I must be sleeping. And yea, I usually will not return call one, I don't know why. Maybe I think that if it's really important you will keep on calling. =p

I need at least 36 hours for one day lo. I want to go play snow ball fight. I want to go sledding. I want to go snow tubing. I want to have more quiet times. I want to hibernate. I want to talk on phone. I want to take a long shower. I want to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner. I want to just chill with friends. I want to do a lot of things lo.

For now, I need to stop blogging and go back to do my work lo. =(

oh ya. Today is a good day. Heart you. =)

Let it snow..let it snow..let it snow....

It's been snowing like mad in Bemidji. I think we have at least 20 inches of snow now..=_= I must have been praying too hard for the snow..for once, I hope it will stop snowing...Heeeeeeeeeeeeee...

You will have this much of dandruff when it is snowing...

This was taken few days back. Now I am sure the snow is thicker than this. cute hor?

The path way to deputy hall.

BSU

I want to go sledding...~

台北的圣诞节 - Joshua's Group

台北的圣诞节 天空不下雪
但是我感觉到一种爱的力量
从天那端开始蔓延
我知道那是你
台北的圣诞节 天空不下雪
但是我感觉到一种爱的力量
从天那端开始蔓延
我知道那是你
全世界的盼望
写在你身上
从永远到永远
都要传唱
你的降生是为了我
是为了我们
台北的圣诞节 天空不下雪
但是我感觉到一种爱的力量
从天那端开始蔓延

我知道那是你

'Closer' by Travis

It's all because of Delvin... This song stuck in my head lo~ This song is making me even more emo... =_+

I've had enough of this parade.
I'm thinking of the words to say.
We open up unfinished parts,
Broken up, it's only love.

And when I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you...

Just need to get closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now,
closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now.

Keep waking up (waking up), without you here (without you here).
Another day (another day), another year (another year).
I seek the truth (seek the truth), we set apart (we set apart)
Second glance, a second chance.

And when I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you...

Just need to get closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now,
closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now (lean on me now).

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

The other day when we were on the way to the city and other states, we saw a lot of banners hanging with "Festival of Light" written on it. One of my friend was curious and said "huh..how come American celebrate Deepavali too"... =_= Then later only we realized that to them Festival of Light is the day when they light up all the Christmas tree and Christmas deco in every town, city, in US.

On the other hand, I have been singing Christmas songs/carols in choir class for this semester. I love singing Christmas songs, thus it makes choir class my favorite subject this semester. =p

Last Christmas, I had a chance to join Edwin & Randall in their school caroling team. I wasn't from their college, but everyone was so nice to me! I had a great time with them, and we got a chance to perform in Lot-10 for every weekend during December. On top of that, the banners and posters with our picture on it were everywhere!! =p

Last Christmas, I had a very very quiet celebration with Anthony and Jason while everyone was back in their hometown. We had a wonderful time together, we shopped, we cooked, we laughed, we talked, and we drank wine without a wine opener!!!


Last Christmas was also my first time with City Harvest. I still remembered I had tears in my eyes when we sang "Angels brought me here". I sent PamSong a message right after that, after all she is the angel that brought me into this big family. =)

This year Christmas gonna be a different one, because I surely have no idea where myself gonna be at. I may be loitering around in the down town selling matches in the cold-snowy-windy night. Dramatic-nya. It doesn't matter where I am gonna be at, I know that I will also be filled with warm loves from my family & friends.

How about you my friends, how are you going to celebrate this year Christmas? Are you going to be alone? or are you going to celebrate with your love ones? Lastly, let me end with this song 'Angels brought me here' by Guy Sebastian.

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Brought me here to be with you,
I'll be forever grateful
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle

That's it

I have had enough.
You break my heart, again and again.
You told me the least thing you wanna do is to dissapoint me.
In fact, you are breaking my heart each day without realizing it.
I have been very considerate, very quiet in the past,
but now, I want to tell you,
D, I am dissapointed.

Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone)

"Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone)"

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbid to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine

endless love. amazing grace. I feel it all.
=)

HappY BirtHday Pam~

Yay! It's Pam's birthday, she is now as old as me! =p

Pam pam, hope you love this video clips, sorry for the photos because I do not have a lot of photos of us with me (you know who to blame, that is yourself!!) and also sorry for the voice clip that is too soft...=p

so, now enjoy la!

Road trip + Banquet + Friends!

Walla walla~

I am back from Memphis, Tennesseeee!! I went there for my company's annual banquet. It was so fun, from the first minute when everyone jumped into the car until the very last minute when we reached the dorm!

Before I continue, I have to thank a few people-lor.....Thank you Chloe, HuiLing, Neil, MyPet, Yvonne, Airene, for making this trip so fun! Thank you guys for accompanying me allllllllllll the way to Memphis and hope you guys enjoyed yourself too!

So back to the topic.. We took about 24 hours to drive to Memphis, on the way we passed by a few states: Minnesota (of cos la!), Iowa, Missouri, Illinois, Arkansas, and Tennessee. It was a very very short trip. From Friday noon to Monday Mid-nite. =_=" It's all because of our stupid school, the thanksgiving holidays only will be started on Wednesday!! We all have to rush back for exams and classes. like Duh lor!!

It was so fun and tiring (I know I have mentioned for quite a few times already, but it was really fun ma!). I was so glad that MyPet helped me to drive a lot, I love Airene's laughter, I enjoyed Chloe's singing, I am amazed by how stone Yvonne can be, I was worried that Neil might get bored, and also I was not surprised that HuiLing slept all the way.

Apart from that, I got to meet all my old friends!! Friends!!! I love my friends!!! i love my pet too.

So now, lets the pictures do all the talking part ok!

I love this picture: Airene, Yvonne, MyPet

Wynx's face is nice to cubit..

Wynx, ming, Mr & Mrs. Batman

Our Summer Gang

When Shuai-ge No. Zero meets Shuai-ge No. 1

MyPet, Yvonne, Airene, ming, KoFen-the manager

airene.chloe.yvonne.mypet.ming.evelyn.gary

ming. MyPet

When I look at this picture, I only realized that we have both changed so much since high school. =_=

MyPet.airene.yvonne.chloe.huiling.ming.neil.wynx.gary.

oh. i'm the lucky one. wynx.me.waikeong

ming. shuai-ge No.2

ok. enough. lazy-liao. till then. toodles.