Tuesday, November 13, 2007

......

Dear friend,

I hope you are feeling better now. I may not fully understand how do you feel, but I am always be here to be your rubbish bin. Stop winding or else you will be like my mom. Maybe slightly better than her. Hee! Whatever it is, you will always be the super model in my heart. (:

A.H.A.S.

Dear 'to whom it may concern',

I wasn't feeling great for the past weekend. Many of you said I was probably having PMS (Premenstrual Syndrome), as I wasn't look happy as usual. However, I did not think that it was because of PMS. I figured it out today, I was having AHAS. AHAS is After Handling up Assignment Syndrome. I know that I did very bad for the research lab literature review. It is the worst paper I have ever written in my whole college life. =( sigh. How la? I think I am still having AHAS until today. =( whatever la.

So, where should I go?




In about 5 weeks time I am going to be kicked out from the dorm, and I will be a homeless girl then. I don't know where should I go, I don't know where should I start my career. Portland would be a nice place, as I can stay with my aunt and cousins, and my parents would not be so worried about me. I'd loved to go to Chicago with my pet and Yvonne, but the living fees in Chicago is something I should take into consideration. Atlanta, another big city with CNN headquarter and Coca-cola museum. Obviously I am not attracted by that. It is just simply because I love the city and my super duper nice-kind-hearted ex-manager is there! And California, who don't love California?? Big city with lots of opportunities, hmm... Or Minneapolis? Considering I have been there for so many times. =_= Well, I don't know how-la. In the end, I think I will stuck in Bemidji, this dead town, forever.

Happy Birthday!


I figured out this is the cheapest way to say Happy Birthday. (:

To:

Teddo (10th): My wish for you is to get a job soon! kita work hard bersama-sama ok? I don't think there is a problem or us to impress the employers! =p

Sung (12th): Sung Sung Sung Sung Sung! I am gonna see you on Banquet this weekend! Miss U!

Nat (15th): Hope that you will be as adorable as Hello Kitty forever!

Pam (21st): I miss my Onneh! I shall sing you the phooi phooi song and send it to you too. luv U!

Vjian (23rd): Now you know why la! Ish!! Have fun in Seattle! Hate you!

Monday, November 05, 2007

我的宠物, my pets

我的宠物给我买了三只宠物。。。
我的宠物是巨“吴“霸大猩猩。。。
它给我买了一只猴子,一只青蛙,一只狗狗。。。


cute or not?

Do you know why I do not sleep well everyday? Because I have to sleep with all my pets.
=_=

我的下雪天。。。

凌晨四点钟起了一个大早, 望着电脑发呆,头脑还没清醒,心里却想着你。。。
冲了一个冷水澡, 把自己从迷迷糊糊之中冲醒。。。
望着窗外,外面竟然正下着一场大雪。。。


心里好开心也好悲伤。。。
开心的是自己喜欢下雪的感觉。。。
悲伤的是即将要离开, 不知还有几个下雪天在这。。。
曾经觉得在这的日子很孤单。。。
如今却有种种的不舍。。。
不舍得的是这里的朋友,这里的天气,这里的风景,这里的空气。。。
更不舍的是当学生的日子。。。
再过几周, 即将开始新的旅程。。。
期盼亦担心。。。
期盼着新的开始。。。
担心着那渺茫的未来, 不知何去何从。。。

***

我在想,爱是不是不开口才珍贵。。。
这几天,天气都好冷好冷。。。
在街上走着,看见很多依偎在男生怀里的女生。。。
好妒嫉也好庆幸。。。
妒嫉的是心里想念的他永远都不在我身边。。。
庆幸的是他不在我身边就少了那一份依赖。。。
习惯性的依赖曾经把我从天堂扔进深渊里。。。
如今它却让我成长了很多。。。

***

知道你最近很忙。。。
不过还死赖着你。。。
其实也没什么。。。
只想听听那久违的声音。。。
来平复我对你的思念。。。

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

.....Happy Halloween.....

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Rojak

forgive me for the randomness.

I have been reading a lot of journals lately. It's all the topics surrounding on multiculturalism & globalization from the psychology point of view. Culture is always an interesting topic to study. I love culture so much to the extend that I stay in Open Borders (where you live with people from everywhere), and also I put 'culture' under the 'interest' section in my resume.

I love everyone no matter where are you from, what color are you, what kinda food you eat, and etc. Over the years, I try not to be racist, not to stereotype, not to discriminate as much as I can. Well, I know sometimes you just can't avoid to be discriminative. I am lucky that the place where I am staying right now, people are not that racist. During the Summer when I was working in North Carolina, people there are famous for their Southern Hospitality, they are even more friendly than Penang people. I am lucky again.

People here categorized us as Asian people. Every time when they talk, we are referred as their favorite Asian people. So, are we really that likable by everyone? Apparently not.

So my friend told me this story when I was back from the Summer. My friends wanted to go Minneapolis (A city that 4 hours away from us), but one of them supposed to work and he had to find someone to replace him. All of my friends are Malaysians. One of them approached this American guy (Sorry I have to name everyone according to their nationality to avoid confusion), so my friend said to him "Can you replace xxx at this time at the dining hall, please.." This American guy did not say anything but his friend who stood beside him (an American guy also) responded to my friend that "why not you just go and ask other Malaysians or Nepalis to replace you, since they love to work, and they work all the time.." My friend said this guy has zero culture sensitivity. To me, I think he is super culture sensitive, considering he knows Malaysians and Nepalis so well.

The other day I got to know that one of my friend (an American guy) just got married. Apparently we have issue with this guy as he is so flirtatious and what I hate about him is, he lies all the time. He lies without blinking his eyes, and too bad we know it's all lies even he wanna cover it nicely. So he messaged me quite a lot of times in MSN after his wedding. I have no problem with that but I hate it so much when he has to lie for all kind of nonsense. So I was kinda frustrated and said this to him "you stop freaking lying around and go get yourself a job and treat your wife good". Well, you can say that I was busy body or whatever, or you can say that whether he wanna be loyal to his wife or what he wanna do in his life is problem, but I just can't stand it ok. As much as I am frustrated with him, he was annoyed by what I said to him too. At last he said this to me "You Asian people, especially you Malaysian, what the hack are you doing in my country, pack your bag and go back to your poor country" I did not exaggerate, not even a bit. Obviously I was upset about it.

During our hall meeting, they announced that this Nepalis guy is not allowed to come to our floor anymore. They complained about him that he came to our floor and used some of the people's computer without permission. Yup, it's his fault that he did not ask permission. But I don't think that it's so serious that if we ever seen him on our floor again, we are allowed to call security officer. Eh Come on la! It's not that he sexually harass the girls here or what, he should at least be given a chance to get a warning first or what. =_=

I still remember when I was staying in Damansara Heights, one of this Vietnamese girl was so upset that she had to move out from the apartment as her house mates signed a petition to ask her to leave the house as she has some skin problems. Because of this her friend (another Vietnamese) also had to move out even she doesn't have any skin problems. People can be so cruel sometimes. Sad right?

Another incident happened in the same apartment. There was one night we were making loud noises, the neighbor on top of our floor came down and scolded us. Without surveying the whole situation, the neighbor went and knocked on the Vietnamese door, and scolded the poor guys who were actually doing assignment. Life can be so unfair sometimes. After I moved out from the apartment what I heard was Vietnamese and Chinese (from China) apparently not allowed to stay in that apartment anymore. sigh.

Can you imagine how beautiful this world gonna be if everyone can learn to tolerate with one another a little bit more? If everyone with different colors of skin able to love each other more, that will be great, as our lives will be as pretty as rainbow, so colorful.

It's 4 am in the morning, obviously I am crapping.

(:

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

A surprise...well..not exactly

I shall blog about my birthday. =p Yea I know it's been awhile, but this morning I received another gift so...*hehe*
I have been really stress lately, I do not sleep well, studies been bad, I am broke,constantly worrying about my future, about getting a job, about the visa application, missing home, wanting to go home badly, and etc la!
The other day when WeeJian called he found out that I wasn't sleeping well lately. All the while I know that he is going to send me something, and well, this morning I received this!
A cuddle bear that can help me to sleep better! I love it! It's really soft and it accompanied me to take a 4-hour-nap this afternoon. =p Then the massager hopefully can massage away my stress!

I received a lot of birthday cards, but this one I love it! It's so funny ok.

Read it!

Well..then my floor mates gave me surprises. On the wall: Ming's birthday on 17th.

& this gonna be so memorable! Natalie K & PMC they made me bring this stupid helium balloons to class. They knew that Wednesday was the busiest day (5 classes back to back) to me, so they purposely wanted me to look stupid in class. Argh! Everyone looked at me like I am a bimbo!

Not only the balloons! They brought me gift with this paper bag, and I just couldn't squeeze it in my bag! Gosh, it was so embarrassing!!

Inside the paper bag was this ducky slippers. =_= I am not going to give birth anytime soon, but that's a nice thought of Natalie K & PMC. Love you girls.

I received a lot of gifts when I was in Malaysia too. This is one of them. I am not the ring or diamond kinda person, but o well, this is from someone special so I don't mind receiving it. =p and oh yea I know I have cute fingers. =p

Songs from Jack and Birthday cake from everyone. It's Mint Chocolate form Coldstone..yummy!

On my birthday they brought me out for dinner. Well, not exactly cos I had to walk there!! But it's ok I had fun.. Anyway, this is Vitalie & me.

Vitalie gave me this! I am not sure whether it's a pig or a cow.. but when I press it in the stomach it has oinky oinky sound. Love it! because it's so nice to cuddle.

Me and the FREE dessert. =p

Me & the Chloe Tan Mei Ling. =p

A married guy, me & Chloe

& now with HuiLing.

Lazy to upload more pictures. =p Well, I am really blessed by all my friends and family. Thank you guys so so so so so so so very much for EVERYTHING! I appreciate it so so so so so very much be it just a smile from you or a hug from you. =)

love y'all!

Monday, October 22, 2007

Super Stress

Stress kaukau.

Sleep at 6am, wake up at 8am.

I don't know since when I have addicted to coffee.

goodness.

What kind of life is this.

Materials to be absorbed: textbooks, plenty of journal articles

Essential ingredients of burning midnight oil: Coffee, a hug, a sweet message, a phone call, a table lamp

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Beat Dance by E22

E22 is funny ok.



Hazel is so cute!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Blessed Child

I am blessed with a lot of birthday wishes and gifts this year.
Wee Hee.
Too many people sing me birthday songs. Lost count already!
I am blessed by WeiYong's amazing voice.
I am blessed by WeeJian's out of tune birthday song.
I am blessed by Pamela's Phooi-Phooi-Phooi birthday song.
I am blessed by E-22 Cellgroup's birthday song while I was in M'sia.
And Jack blessed me by playing a song on the piano!
He said this song is 梦想的婚礼 (A Dream Wedding), He wished me to have my dream wedding in the future! So sweeeeeet...
When he played this song I reminded him not to play too well, so you can tell from the video that it has a few out of tune key, this is because I tell him not to play better than my bf. =p


Oh ya.. I did not post up other voice clip because it's too personal. =p

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Leaving on a jet plane

My friends welcome me back with these.

From Vitalie.
It says "Welcome Home Ming"

Welcome Home Ming. But I miss the Home in Malaysia. This time I only get to spend 6 days in Malaysia. 5 days in Penang, 1 day in KL, 4 days on the flight. =_=

I don't know why it's even harder for me to leave home this time. argh. I was hoping that my flight got canceled on the day I left. But no lo..=(

During the last night in KL, a few of us went to RedBox... I wanted to sing this song to him badly but I couldn't find it. Geramnya. Sigh. I know I should have spent more time alone with you but I chose to go out in a group, I know you understand and you will do whatever that gonna make me happy. =p So, this song is for you!

Leaving on a Jet Plane by Chantal Kreviazuk

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Yes. I so hate to go. Hate to leave you too.
But.
You know that.
Me Heart You.

Speak Chinese!

This girl is terror.
See. I tell you huh.
When I first met her 6 or 7 years ago, she barely spoke a single-Chinese-word.
She asked me to teach her "Lu Nak Cari Mati" in Chinese, so I taught her "你要找死路啊?" (Ni Yao Zhao Si Lu a).
Today...She is no longer a banana girl... FuiiIIiiYooooOooRrr.. Read what she left in the comments box in her blog.
我的心,碎了,一个一个跌在地上。你不管我的。=(
(My heart has broken, pieces by pieces fallen on the ground. You don't care about me. )

Then, another one.
你在哪里了?飞了啊? 飞来找我可以吗?不要哭了。知道你哭,我也很辛苦。我很想念你,你懂吗?快点回来。我在这边等你。
(Where are you now? Have you flown? Can you fly to see me? Don't cry. Know that you are crying, I am feeling hard too. Do you know that I miss you too? Come back soon, ok? I am here waiting for you. )

Argh. Direct translation is hard.

Sweet huh. My bf doesn't even say that to me.

Miss you babe. InG-17 is missing eLa-21.

10 10 10 10

~Ten Ten Ten Ten~


Congratulations brother & 嫂嫂~
How can my brother be so cute and she is so prrreeeeettttyyyyyyyyy??

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Again

Told you. Every time when I want to travel or when I am traveling, something surely will happen. WHY?

My flight canceled yesterday. They delayed my flight not by 1 hour not by 6 hours, but one whole freaking day!!

And so, I have to overnight at my friend's place, I have to wait in the St. Paul airport for 6 hours, I have to wait in the LA airport for another 3 hours., and I also have to dump away my air ticket from KL to Penang.

Sad or not?

Friday, September 28, 2007

=(

WEE JIAN SCOLDED ME!!!
HE IS SO FIERCE la!!!!
UNLOCK iPHONE only ma!!!
I KNOW I AM DUMB la!!!
I KNOW I AM STUPID la!!!
but DONT SCOLD ME ma!!!

=(

SO GARANG la!!!

=(

XIAO XIAO JIAN, dun get mad at me, i still LOVE you no matter how much you have scolded me......

I AM A TEACHABLE STUDENT ok...

=p

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Anthony!

Chatting with Anthony can be very fun, cos he is so adorable la! We have known each other for a year now... From Emerge 06' until today.. Seeing him from a guy just won a singing contest until a singer today, it's been a long journey for him. A lot of things have been changed, but he still stay the same!

When I first got to know him, he was so friendly, and not shy at all! =p Miss those days when I had to fetch him to airport and Astro when he just sold his car, Miss those days when I can just sit there to listen to his beautiful voice, Miss those days when I can enjoy looking at him playing the piano.

I miss the day when we went to RedBox to sing from 12noon to 9pm! I miss the day when he decided to 'dump' away his friends and accompanied me and Jason on Christmas.

And last but not least, I love him simply because he bought my very cute Kelisa from me! *haha*

Anyway, cut the craps, so..His EP album just released not along ago, I especially love one of the song in the album: 倔强爱着你 (Jue Jiang Ai Zhe Ni).

The way he presents or sings this song is lovely. You will love it. =)

Oh yea! Do not download his song from the internet, buy original album ok! Support him!



倔強愛著你
词:蓝小邪/施人诚
曲:杨子朴

泪一滴 笑一滴 每一滴存进我手心
这会是我给妳幸福的积蓄
宠着妳 守着妳 把世界赢回来给妳
我只想专心做好这件事情
如果突然晴天下起雨 淋湿的也只有我而已
所有的困难 教会我怎样保护妳

不变不怕不灰心 我就是这么倔强爱着妳
才不听有多少反对声音 凭着爱什么不可以
不走不放不犹豫 我还是这么倔强爱着妳
不用管还有多少不一定
妳只要相信 我永远坚定

苦一滴 痛一滴 每一滴酝酿成甜蜜
这就是我对妳幸福的约定
在努力 在珍惜 准备好完美的自己
再创造最完美的明天给妳
如果突然阳光都结冰 我的手会暖热妳的心
所有的崎岖 是未来珍贵的风景

用我的笑填满妳眼睛 要妳的明天比今天开心
所有的暴雨是为了证明
我们拥有无尽的勇气 擦干泪为彼此放晴

Monday, September 24, 2007

Wahaha

During our trip to Mrtyle Beach... in one of the restaurant...Our manager was discussing with us which show to watch after the lunch....he didnt know that we actually added salt, pepper, ketchup into his drink when he went to the restroom...All of us were waiting for him to take a sip of the Coke. Haha..

He is the best manager ever. We love him!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Blah

I am not happy. I am so not happy.

I do not feel like going home anymore.

I have tons of work to finish off before I leave.

I haven't prepared a notice for selling off my car.

I haven't met up with my professors for telling them I am taking a 2-week holidays.

My Summer job customers give me hell of problems. So many returned and dishonest checks, and 5 dollars get deducted from my account each time I received a bounced check. Thus, I haven't remit any money to my company.

I haven't bought a dress for myself for my brother's wedding.

I haven't bought anything for everyone back home.

I haven't brought my I-20 to the International Admission Office to get okie-dokie from them.

I lost my laundry card that have at least 10 dollars in it.

I haven't memorized the US & Canada national anthem's lyrics for upcoming performance during the football games.

As an assignment of career&internship class, I have to find several job descriptions online. This is scaring me off. All my "desire" jobs require at least 2 years of experience, and some even a master-degree. Yes, I am worry for myself.

I kinda screwed up 2 tests last week. It was really bad. I studied but...sigh

Every time walking down the hallway in the dorm, I can see everyone is either watching movie or chatting in the room; I am so jealous of them. This is the difference between a final-semester-senior and a freshman.

I hate to tell my friends that..."Hey you guys go ahead, I have works to do..."

Sigh.

I have no life.

Haih.

So many things to do, so little time I have.

I want to sleep. Let me sleep.