In the beginning of the 4th year..

wow..the 4th year..finally.. anyway..the 3rd anniversary was great...get to celebrate with ted for whole day without any disturbance..hehe..went to shopping..makan..star wars..n ted get a new tattoo..a nice one!!..really nice..i'm really happy for him too..i really had fun yesterday n this morning was great too when receiving flower from ted..=p.. anyway...3 years...well..not easy..really..not easy..lots of great times together, lots of broken promises, lots of heart brokens, lots of learning experiences too...no regrets in every single day... although ppl trying to convince me i;m stupid for staying in this relationship after all these shits happen...well..u guys are wrong..i'm glad that i'm still holding on to this relationship..i guess we just shouldnt give up something dat we long for easily.. i guess he needed my trust n support da most when he is lost in here... i'm so disappointed at myself for wanting to break up.. i thought we should be there for each other when things like this happen? just take da star wars for example.. anakin did not gain trust from jedi n he dunno whether should trust jedi or da dark side...n his wife dunno wut to do..in the end he joined da dark side as he not sure which path is better for him..so i guess i should be here to do my part (be a good gf) in order not to let him join da "dark side"...muahaha... well..i'm glad this shitty thing happen too..it really makes me stronger n makes me realise a lot of stuff..firstly..dun trust a person easily..n dun ever judge a book by its cover..dun treat a friend like a best friend when u dunno her well...n make sure u dun tell all ur secrets to her..as one day ppl will backstab n betray you without ur notice...yup..some ppl are dat mean..anyway...gotta thanks this shitty ppl..becos of u..i'm now stronger..be it mentally or physically..with your competition..it makes me more alert n awake...with your backstabbing..it makes me to look at things n ppl around more carefully..becos of your existence...i'd learned to cherish my bf more..becos of your action, it makes me realise how childish you are...=p..i guess enough dee kua...hehe..but truthfully...i really learn a lot tru this experience..i dun really care anymore..in my heart..i only have few things dat really matters me now.....ted, studies, US, my diet..=p..

anyway...few words for ted,
darling..thanks for everything..not only for yesterday...but also today and tomorrow..
lots of things we have been going tru, hope dat every each experience had taught us to be more mature n learned from every each of them.. i really enjoy every single lil time with u together..hehe..as u promised to love me more in this beginning of the 4th year, again, i'll have faith in your words and i'll try my best to be an understanding gf ( but i'm always like dat..haha)...lastly..dear...really..thanks for everything..be it good or bad..i really love you..i really do..=)