a long post

Hello Everyone!*lol*

I know I know I know it's been so long! I know everyone has been asking me where I have been doing. I know I haven't returned phone calls, messages and all that. I know I know I know and I know what you guys are thinking. And I so-very know you guys do not know my time as evidenced by calling me or messaging me at 4 or 5 or 6 in the morning!! Hellllo!!! Learn my time, go check the time of Seattle, Washington!!

Oh well, I have been busy working and doing nothing at the same time. =_+ How lame is that.


Constantly clean up my room. I don't understand why is it so dusty all the time!! I know, it's crazy to have 6 pillows and 2 quilts. This is what I do when I am not working. Cleaning and more cleaning, or try to catch some sleeps!

I remember the last conversation I had with Jamie, the last message I received from him before I fell asleep was "how's social life". Ah, good question. I would have told him (if I didn't fall asleep that time) I have no social life in Seattle. Oh wait. I am actually socializing with the kids everyday. =_+

Nah, sometimes, I do socialize a bit with Airene. =_+ I do go out with my colleagues. Like going out for a drink. Well, not really a drink la. Omg, I should cut down on drinking. It's really bad when I do not know what's my limit, apparently I'm pretty good la. =_+ I had 1 mango margarita, 1 house special, 2 midori sour in one night the other day and I did not feel a thing. =_+ I am not alcoholic if you are wondering. I really want to know what's my limit though. Noriko said she gonna help me to test how far I can go one day (on off day of cos!!).

Sing Karaoke with Airene lor, or other colleagues like Noriko, Raymond lo. =_= Love singing. Ah, I can't wait to go sing K with WeiYong & Vjian, and the other group of Randall, Edwin, Eric n Anthony! Haaaaaaa... I wanttttttt to go! so badly. =_+

Actually we went to sing K again yesterday. Then went to bubble tea shop played Jenga. Life without mamak. How miserable is that!! Talking about Mamak, I miss Malaysia so much. I have got my vacation leaves approved, now it's up to me whether I want to go home for a short while. Considering the air ticket is pretty pricey now, I have to rethink about the plan. Well, Pam and Vjian said I should not put price on the friendship, so I should go back no matter what!! Well...I have to see how's everything gonna turn out la.

Love going to the Beach. Went to Seahurst Beach with Airene and Noriko the other day. Love the weather.
We should do this more often. Go hiking, jogging, tennis, badminton, cook out, sushi, sushi, sushi, and more sushi. =_=

Part of the reason I love the place I work. I love this view. While kids are busying fishing, I get to enjoy and embrace the nature. *lol*

While walking kids to the library I saw this, the cutest BBQ pit ever!!

I can't remember when was the last time I played bubble blowing. One of my favorite activity with the kids! I am a kid at heart, mind you.

Went to Eagle Landing Park a lot lately. I love the beach there as it doesn't have too much of seaweed. It's like a place where you get to hike as well. You need to walk down from a very steep hill, and also 350 of steps down to the beach (Just think of when we need to climb those steps back up to the main road). It's tiring but I love it lo.

I brought kids there today. They were like complaining all the way like how tired they were. =_= Anyway, we were digging for crabs! It's so fun!! First, you gotta move away the rock, then you will see a lot of mini crabs running around! We did put them back into the water before we leave. =)

Another park that I love! It's Burien Community Park.

Flower. Flower. Flower. How can you don't take pictures with pretty flowers!

It can be a pretty high stress job that I am having. But in the end of the day, a smile from a kid can always makes your day. What can I ask for more when a kid gives you this? It definitely touches my heart when I know that he has to earn those bears from behaving good in school in order to get points to exchange for bears. How can I don't love them?

From the beginning of the year until today, I have heard at least 5 friends of mine getting married, get engaged, or has been talking about marriage with their bf. Shirley brought another good news the other day. How sweet is that! It makes me wonder, and think...erm..Maybe I should be more serious in the relationship. Wait, hold on. I didn't meant it that way as if I am not being serious in this current relationship. hack ya. I have been so serious! It is just, ah, when reality strikes in..., oh well, I think my girl's friends will understand what I am trying to say, or at least how I feel. I made this the other day, the recipe of a successful long distance relationship. I left out 'trust' and I did not realize it until I am typing this. Well, it was probably because I can trust the person I love easily, and that's why I did not think of it when I was doing this. Hmm..

There's so many things I have been thinking about lately. Sometimes I hope it will be as easy as picking up a dandelion, then blow at it, *poof*, the worries will all go away, happiness or dreams will come your way as you are making a wish on it when the pappus flying away from the dandelion clock.

*sigh*.

I want to go home.

I have so many things to say but I am really busy lately.
=_+
Come back again yo.

唉

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这是我此刻的心情。你懂吗？
很想家。其实真得很想家吗？ 还是厌倦了这里的生活？
一路以来，都很独立。坚强的自己反而常常让自己忽略了身边可依靠的肩膀。
唉。
其实也没什么，只想发唠叨。
又是那五月的记忆在作祟。
只能说，嗯， 我想你。

WHAT!! David A. should have won!!

As much as I love David Cook, but I still prefer David Archuleta as the new American Idol!!



I love guys who can play piano. =_+ I prefer guys who can play piano to guys that play guitar. Fine, I love guys who can play music. Ahh. But I still love David A. He is young, he is so cute, there is so much potentials in him!! Helllooooo!! I should have voted...oh well...I should have spent 3 dollars on him...ah.. it's too late now!

Wait!! I still don't understand!! Even the three judges thought he was so good and he actually rocked the whole season!! WHyyyyyyyyy... Tell me why... ):

Here In My Home

Unity in Malaysia. Is it possible? Just believe and be hopeful. I believe the citizens, the Malaysians, they can do it. However, honestly, I am not too sure about the politicians and the government.

I miss Malaysia. (:

Tonight.....

Keith Urban - Tonight I wanna cry


Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
'All By Myself' would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Tonight, I am listening to this song over again and again. The feeling is so strong. The song says what my heart says. The differences are...I have the pictures of you and I in my computer.. I am not drinking...I am not making myself drunk to let go of the pain... It's May. It's an honest feeling. I miss you. (:

The Day

Finally, it's the DAY!! The night before I was still reluctant to fly to Bemidji even though air ticket had been bought.Anyway, I had no regret going back to Bemidji. =p

So I took a 3-day off so that I can attend the graduation. On Thursday early in the morning I flew to Minneapolis. It was almost 3pm when I was there. The stupid Car Rental company wasted my time for almost 90 minutes. The traffic in Minneapolis was so so so so heavy, I was stucked in jam for 2 hours?? So, I went to Albertville Outlet to shop instead. =_+
When I reached Bemidji, OMG, I felt like I was home again. Dewey Avenue welcomed me with the left over Indian Mee Goreng and Buffalo Wings form Green Mills. *lol* After that we went to the neighbor's house party. I missed all the huggies that everyone gave me, apparently most of them knew that I came back from Seattle... How come la?? I hardly tell anyone also. =_+ Anyway, the party should be fun when you get to meet all the old friends, thse days during university life, hehe, but I was really tired the other night and it was freaking hot so I decided to end the night. =_=

I stayed at Nat + PMC + CW Pua's House when I was in Bemidji. I miss CW's room's smell. *lol* I used to stay there for like almost 2 weeks. Anyway, after that I tried to put on the graduation robe before go to bed.

The next morning, we went to the brunch at Lower Union to meet professors and students. So many many many parents were there, =_+ jealous la!! We took a lot of pictures lo, like 29380203 of them, below are just a few of them. =p

At the brunch.

With Dr. Beech and Nat's mom and aunty.

With the girls.

I miss school!!

The HS Hall, I used to go to class there like every freaking day.

With Alvin Senior and Molly - the family friends.

Miss you already.

Our part time hobby in Bemidji was cam-whoring. =_+

When can we take picture like this again la?

Even in the bathroom.

Some of us. Everyone was not ready. I love this picture.

Now we are ready!

Nat and I. The white shirt that I was wearing, I used to wear it when I was working for Aramark catering service. *lol* Damn cheap ar me, I just don't feel like wasting money to buy white shirt la!

In memorial hall. We are ready to graduate!

I have a family came to visit me!

The wind was so strong. Believe me!!

During the walk to John Glass Stadium. Wait, it's not a stadium. But I can't remember the name. =_+

Many many of us.

I have never seen so many people in Bemidji before. =_+

We were waiting. Waiting for everyone to deliver the boring speeches.

Can you see me?

With Prof Zhang. You don't want to know which class I took with her. =p She reminded me to earn big money in Seattle. I am actually earning peanuts in Seattle la.

Vitalieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. He welcomed me with this super warm hug the other night. I miss the times when he flooded my msn with "don't stay in front of the computer", or suddenly came to my room and said "ming, why are you always in front of the computer?", or get angry at me when I did not want to go house party, and I definitely will never forget he celebrated my first birthday in Bemidji with me!

Patrick and I with our family friends. I miss them!!

With the President, Jon

Patrick always has to make me look so short.

Finally, graduated already.

Seriously, by the time I was taking this picture, my mouth was numb, I did not know how to smile already!

With my favorite girls!

With the Williams and the Cobbs.

Aaron Aaron Aaron!! He has grown so much!

Throwing the mortarboard.

Flying high.

Everyone was looking for their mortarboard.

Now, taking a decent picture. Not ready yet.

A good one.

The wind was so strong.

Take 1.

Take 2.

Take 1. Look at CheeWei's hair.

Take 2. Look at Chee Wei's hair. I still have the same jump. =_=

4 of us. Damn happy ar!

Smile!

The wind was killing us.

Seriously, the wind. =_+

Look at them and you know how strong is the wind. It was like 87.57 miles per hour. =_+

Look at my hair. =_=

A video as a proof of how strong was the wind.

Went back to Jon Glass to take more pictures. We were so happy man!

*haha* like the prom pictures only.

my weird smile.

With my one-day mom.

Nat's mom (Heidi) and Aunt ( Fiona) were damn nice ok.

In front of the tallest building in Bemidji. The Tamarack Resident hall. 13 floors. *lol*

At the Deputy Hall. This was my first time taking picture there!

2 mad women.

Wasting school's resources for the very last time.

At night we went to Dr. Beech house for dinner. The puppy Bonnie was so cute.

Then, the very last time to Keg and Cork, even though I was super tired and had to drive at 5:30am later.

The best Sex on The Beach that I ever had. It's like my "must-drink" every time go to Keg.

With my ex-floor mates.

Before I left Bemidji, I got to see the sun rise! Pretty isn't it?

Now I am graduated, I can tell everyone I got a Bull Shit from Bull Shit University. =_+ I mean a Bachelor of Sc (in Psychology) from Bemidji State University. =_+ After countless days spent on in front of the computers, million clicks on the FaceBook, uncountable days of procrastinating, countless days of day dreaming, $72928302920 dollars spent in tuition fees and living fees, and also a $40 dollars graduation gown spent, I am finally graduated.

If you had to ask me what's the smartest thing I have learned in school, I can tell you which is "I decided not to wear high heels during the graduation walk" ( I can see Nat nodding her head and agreeing with me). =_+

Now I am back to Seattle, come to think of it, I had a great time in Bemidji. Be it during the school days or during the last couple days, I enjoyed every single day of it. During the last trip I was really tired, but filled. I am thankful for everything!!

Last but not least, a song for you guys!



As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

Thank you guys so much. Especially to the Williams family, Nat (and your mom and aunty), PMC, Chee Wei, and everyone everyone everyone, and the people who bought me flowers and cards, and also the phone calls and sms from thousand miles away. Thank You!!