The Day

Finally, it's the DAY!! The night before I was still reluctant to fly to Bemidji even though air ticket had been bought.Anyway, I had no regret going back to Bemidji. =p

So I took a 3-day off so that I can attend the graduation. On Thursday early in the morning I flew to Minneapolis. It was almost 3pm when I was there. The stupid Car Rental company wasted my time for almost 90 minutes. The traffic in Minneapolis was so so so so heavy, I was stucked in jam for 2 hours?? So, I went to Albertville Outlet to shop instead. =_+
When I reached Bemidji, OMG, I felt like I was home again. Dewey Avenue welcomed me with the left over Indian Mee Goreng and Buffalo Wings form Green Mills. *lol* After that we went to the neighbor's house party. I missed all the huggies that everyone gave me, apparently most of them knew that I came back from Seattle... How come la?? I hardly tell anyone also. =_+ Anyway, the party should be fun when you get to meet all the old friends, thse days during university life, hehe, but I was really tired the other night and it was freaking hot so I decided to end the night. =_=

I stayed at Nat + PMC + CW Pua's House when I was in Bemidji. I miss CW's room's smell. *lol* I used to stay there for like almost 2 weeks. Anyway, after that I tried to put on the graduation robe before go to bed.

The next morning, we went to the brunch at Lower Union to meet professors and students. So many many many parents were there, =_+ jealous la!! We took a lot of pictures lo, like 29380203 of them, below are just a few of them. =p

At the brunch.

With Dr. Beech and Nat's mom and aunty.

With the girls.

I miss school!!

The HS Hall, I used to go to class there like every freaking day.

With Alvin Senior and Molly - the family friends.

Miss you already.

Our part time hobby in Bemidji was cam-whoring. =_+

When can we take picture like this again la?

Even in the bathroom.

Some of us. Everyone was not ready. I love this picture.

Now we are ready!

Nat and I. The white shirt that I was wearing, I used to wear it when I was working for Aramark catering service. *lol* Damn cheap ar me, I just don't feel like wasting money to buy white shirt la!

In memorial hall. We are ready to graduate!

I have a family came to visit me!

The wind was so strong. Believe me!!

During the walk to John Glass Stadium. Wait, it's not a stadium. But I can't remember the name. =_+

Many many of us.

I have never seen so many people in Bemidji before. =_+

We were waiting. Waiting for everyone to deliver the boring speeches.

Can you see me?

With Prof Zhang. You don't want to know which class I took with her. =p She reminded me to earn big money in Seattle. I am actually earning peanuts in Seattle la.

Vitalieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. He welcomed me with this super warm hug the other night. I miss the times when he flooded my msn with "don't stay in front of the computer", or suddenly came to my room and said "ming, why are you always in front of the computer?", or get angry at me when I did not want to go house party, and I definitely will never forget he celebrated my first birthday in Bemidji with me!

Patrick and I with our family friends. I miss them!!

With the President, Jon

Patrick always has to make me look so short.

Finally, graduated already.

Seriously, by the time I was taking this picture, my mouth was numb, I did not know how to smile already!

With my favorite girls!

With the Williams and the Cobbs.

Aaron Aaron Aaron!! He has grown so much!

Throwing the mortarboard.

Flying high.

Everyone was looking for their mortarboard.

Now, taking a decent picture. Not ready yet.

A good one.

The wind was so strong.

Take 1.

Take 2.

Take 1. Look at CheeWei's hair.

Take 2. Look at Chee Wei's hair. I still have the same jump. =_=

4 of us. Damn happy ar!

Smile!

The wind was killing us.

Seriously, the wind. =_+

Look at them and you know how strong is the wind. It was like 87.57 miles per hour. =_+

Look at my hair. =_=

A video as a proof of how strong was the wind.

Went back to Jon Glass to take more pictures. We were so happy man!

*haha* like the prom pictures only.

my weird smile.

With my one-day mom.

Nat's mom (Heidi) and Aunt ( Fiona) were damn nice ok.

In front of the tallest building in Bemidji. The Tamarack Resident hall. 13 floors. *lol*

At the Deputy Hall. This was my first time taking picture there!

2 mad women.

Wasting school's resources for the very last time.

At night we went to Dr. Beech house for dinner. The puppy Bonnie was so cute.

Then, the very last time to Keg and Cork, even though I was super tired and had to drive at 5:30am later.

The best Sex on The Beach that I ever had. It's like my "must-drink" every time go to Keg.

With my ex-floor mates.

Before I left Bemidji, I got to see the sun rise! Pretty isn't it?

Now I am graduated, I can tell everyone I got a Bull Shit from Bull Shit University. =_+ I mean a Bachelor of Sc (in Psychology) from Bemidji State University. =_+ After countless days spent on in front of the computers, million clicks on the FaceBook, uncountable days of procrastinating, countless days of day dreaming, $72928302920 dollars spent in tuition fees and living fees, and also a $40 dollars graduation gown spent, I am finally graduated.

If you had to ask me what's the smartest thing I have learned in school, I can tell you which is "I decided not to wear high heels during the graduation walk" ( I can see Nat nodding her head and agreeing with me). =_+

Now I am back to Seattle, come to think of it, I had a great time in Bemidji. Be it during the school days or during the last couple days, I enjoyed every single day of it. During the last trip I was really tired, but filled. I am thankful for everything!!

Last but not least, a song for you guys!



As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

Thank you guys so much. Especially to the Williams family, Nat (and your mom and aunty), PMC, Chee Wei, and everyone everyone everyone, and the people who bought me flowers and cards, and also the phone calls and sms from thousand miles away. Thank You!!

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day!!!!

I miss mummy's indian curry fish head!!! Mummy I know you are reading this....I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you..... =p

......happy bday.......

to YOU, dear Wei Yong....

**~Happy Birthday~**

I wonder when only I can be there to sing you a birthday song? *sigh* Miss your sexy voice. RedBox RedBox RedBox!!

Just want you to know that you are very much loved by me!

Happy Birthday!

I have been wondering where have you been.

Marie Digby is going to KL, I wonder will you be there to see her.

I have so many things to share with you but you were no where to be seen.

I hope all is well with you.

&

I really care.

Missing you, dear friend.

what a morning!

While Bf is asleep, his friends are there to entertain me.

I would never say NO to Randall and Eric when they say they want to sing me songs through the web cam even though I would appear like a mad woman in the morning.

Obviously, while they are entertaining me, they are entertaining themselves too.

Their voices can kill a girl and melt a girl's heart, they never failed to make me feel warm inside and never failed to make me smile!

Well, as you can see, I can make them smile/laugh too. Really deli la (this is our language).
I am surprised that I let them see my golimar (our language) face this morning. Omg.

傻蛋s

My life has been invaded by the TANs lately. The 傻蛋s.

David Tan.


Gary Tan.


Airene Tan.

p/s: the last picture so pretty, cos I was the one that took it. =p

How well do you know me?

I am not saying what kind of food I like to eat or how many dogs I have. Here is something you might not know about me! =)

1. I love to draw. More like doodle or scribble.
2. I love to be creative. Love making cards, I have a big collection of cards that I have made in the past but I am kinda regret of not taking photos on any of it. I will do it next time when I go back to Penang. Hehe. I was a noob in making cards when I was in high school, those cards that I made looked very childish, but I got better and better when I fell inloveeeeeeeeee with someone, that's where I got all the inspirations. lol. I used to make cards for my friends during Christmas or Valentines day, or special occasion during high school, not to many of them though, only lucky people got it. haha. I think only a few of them I still keep in touch with now. I remember Jamie got a few when he left for Canada, then Wynx, then I can't remember liao!!
   
3. I am good at imitating, like looking at a picture and drawing out the same picture la.
4. I miss Malaysians foods but I do not crave for it. The last time when I went back to Malaysia I did not even purposely go out to eat hawker food, not even once. =_+ I only had roti canai when I met up with Pam, WeiYong, Andrew right after I got off the plane. The entire trip I only had home cook food which I love it!!
   
5. I personally do not like to watch movie in the cinema. =_= Wait, depends with who la. Haiyo. Well, not that I don't like it but I tend to fall asleep in the cinema no matter how good the movie is!! I tend to feel super cold and started to shiver in the cinema, which makes me cannot concentrate on the movie!! But there's always an exception la, for example, having someone there to keep me awake or keep me warm. lol.
6. I am a simple girl that easy to please. Seriously, no kidding. =_+ I do not really like the idea of eating out with bf unless it's sushi or Japanese food la! I love home cook food, preferably something he cooks, like Nishin Noodles, fried rice, fried luncheon meat, tuna sandwich. =_+ Easy or not??
   
7. I am a homey. I love staying in. I can do all sort of things to make myself feel occupied. =_+
8. I can be a loner. Sometimes I just feel like going every places alone. BUT I will never eat alone at any restaurant. =_+
9. I am a nicey but I can be a meany too. Do not try me on that.
   
10. I smile a lot. Some people may see me as a faker or a retard person. Sigh, it's just me la, I love to smile maaaaaaaa...
11. When I chat, I type a lot of "haha", "hehe", "haiyo", "aiyoo" in my conversation... Told you I am a cheerful girl maaaaa... as quoted from one of my testimonial from Wynx in Friendster ( I have proof one! I dun simply say one! =p):

    her smile really cute lar (the sound)..even thru phone (or even MSN messenger) u can imagine her cute face haha.. anyway she is a girl dat always carry a smile on her face whenever i see her.. (but a bit cunning wan sometimes..) and hor.. when i'm chatting with her now.. she every 2,3 sentences sure got one "haha" wan.. buddy dat u'll happy to chat with la..

12. I had long hair when I was in primary school until my school decided to have everyone cuts their hairs. =_+ Super lame one!! I don't see people will be more discipline when they have their hairs short!! During high school, we had to keep our hair short too, so stupid ok cos we were not allowed to keep our hair too short too as we will be suspected as being a TomBoy!! Then, finally when I went to college I got to keep my hair long again. I hardly cut my hair, maybe once or twice a year, I am serious one!! At one point my hair was this long. Then there was one night I got really frustrated at my stupid long hair, I decided to chop it off! So I walked to my mom and said "mummy ar, wa beh tahan liao, wa ai ka ki ga wa eh ta mo: mummy, I can't stand it anymore, I am gonna cut my hair by myself". Then mom said "mai siao la, ma zai wa chua lu ki ga...:Don't be crazy, I will bring you to cut your hair tomorrow".. Aiya, at that moment I don't really care anymore, so I gathered my sisters and we 3 cut my hair! Fun ler! So my hair became like this after that, right before I came to Us.
13. Simple things make me happy. For example, taking picture while eating guai-leng-gou with my sunshine.
14. I love island. I was born in Penang Island. I love islands. =_+ The last trip to Perhentian Island was really great. Blue blue sky, white sandy beach, crystal clear water, you get the idea la! Sabah is another great place that has a lot of nice islands! Must visit!! So many of us. =)Everyone was so funny. Look at Neilson and Randall. =_=
    
15. I love swimming.
    
16. I talk a lot, if you really know me, you will know that. It's a little bit annoying sometimes.
17. A lot of friends made comment that I only make good friend with good looking people. This is so not true ok!! It's just so happen most of my good friends are good looking. =_=
18. I have more boy's friends than girl's friends. And I make better friends with guys. =_+ Maybe I am a guy..hmm. No la! Because I just can't stand girls who are often too bitchy and dramatic!!!
19. I hardly pick up phone calls. Sorry guys, it's just me. =_+ Sometimes, once in a while I will missed Edwin's calls too. So, really la, no big deal for not picking up your calls. =_=
20. BUT, sometimes, I do not pick up calls or reply to your messages because I was working, and you just call me at the wrong time. Like this guy, he always calls at the wrong time, like when I have to restraint a kid or when I am in bathroom. This guy is David Tan (He threatened me to post his picture here. =_+).Every time when I look at this picture it makes me happy cos he looks like such a poser, his sister MayJune is the winner of Malaysia first Star Idol.
    
    
21. Pretty and colorful things make me happy!
22. I love making fun of myself. Pictures speak.

Featuring Pammy

Sigh. How could I made such face?

The last two pictures were too much for you guys. Show you picture when I was little. Hehe.

Actually I wanted to type more, but I am getting tired already. =_+

David Tan oh David Tan...

LOL.

I know you are reading.

I know North Carolina is treating you badly.

I know you are very bored.

I know you can't flood my Facebook wall no more.

I know you hate me for not picking up your call.

I wonder ah, why are you so free one?

Don't you have to bathe your little puppy?

hmmmmm... I am just posting this up for the sake of updating the blog. =p

Cherry Blossoms at U of Washington

so Pretty... so Pweeeety... so PreeeeeeTTTttTTyyyYYYyy...
I mean.. the Sakura Tree at University of Washington - the Quad.
Everything is so nice. I want to enroll myself in this school la!!

At the Quad.

We almost missed the cherry blossom season. Most of the flowers already fallen on the ground lu... =_+

pink n green.

so pretty la.

who doesn't want to study in this kind of environment?

so hard to get a nice picture. =_+

ahhhhHHhhhh...

i love sakura.

can dance para para sakura here already la!

ok. save money. enroll in this school. tata.

Nice people everywhereeeeeeeee

I ask you la..where to find such a nice landlord laaaaaaaa.....?

Remember I said our dishwasher was broken. Actually there's nothing major, just that the handle was broken. Mr. Landlord replaced another one for us not long ago, but it was leaking... So, Mr. landlord yesterday bought us another one!!! OMG la, we told him actually we don't use the dishwasher one, because Airene and I are cheapo, we will not waste the electricity one la, but the nice Mr. Landlord insisting on replacing a new one.


I felt kinda bad la!!! Our landlord is a very strong man, as in big size man. Seeing him had to bend down his body and try to fit his body in the small small space to replace the dishwasher, I felt really really bad la, I couldn't help some more. The worst thing is, their whole family was at our place to help yesterday. The Mrs. landlord help us to clean up the mess after that. Then the daughter helped her dad to fix the dishwasher. OMG la. =_+

Then ar..you guys know that we have a big TV but it has been sitting in our living room miserably as we just placed it on the floor ma. But now ar, our Mr. Landlord helped the tv to find a house la! He gave us this cabinet! And before I say anything rite, he helped us to move the TV to sit on top of the cabinet. =p


Nice huh!! He is amazing I tell you!!

Then ar. Another thing. Our new dryer, after we used couple of times, we found that our clothes take such a long time to dry and there's no hot air coming out!! So we told him la, his wife suggested that maybe we should not put too many clothes n bla bla bla...BUT, the Mr. Landlord said "we should exchange ours with theirs..". When I heard that I was like...Please...NOOOOooooOOOO.... Your family will kill us man...=p Then he said if it's so, we can just tell him again if there's more problems.

Oh ya. our landlord helps us to throw rubbish too. =_+

Haih. Do you still remember I was being a Korean not long ago rite. My face was swollen, skin itchy n super dry. Then after that my skin became very smooth. Yesterday I woke in the middle of the night I realized that my face was swollen again although this time its not dry but it swells pretty bad. But now I know the cause. It was all Proactive Solution's fault!!! It seemed that the toner contain some kind of sulfur that my skins cannot take it! Yesterday I thought I haven't used this product for so long already, so might as well give it a try again, and now my face swells again!! Grr!! This morning when Airene woke up she went to pharmacy to get me medicine. How nice is that!!

It's always good to have nice house mate and nice landlord! Heee... I am happy!

pre-graduation

Seeing the air ticket to fly back to Bemidji is increasing bit by bits each day, I am started to think should I really pay that much to go back just for the graduation.

I feel that it is rather meaningless to go back anymore. My family will not be there, my brother that once promised me to come also not coming!! I have been to a few of my close friends' graduation, it makes you feel darn jealous seeing their families are there for them, receiving tones of flowers and teddy bears. Honestly, who cares about the flowers and the bears? What I want is someone close to me to be with me on that day. To some of you it may just another day to celebrate, but to me it's kinda important becauseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... you just have no idea how much I have worked hard and paid off just to come to this so-called the land of freedom.

At first I thought of calling WeiYong to come since he is in Wisconsin now for training, but oh well, he is flying back to Malaysia in like 3 days?? I know I can call Ted as he is pretty near to Minnesota, but he also has to attend his dear sherlyn's graduation. Then I thought of Wynx, but sigh he is so far away living in the miserable land of Tennessee. If only WeeJian is here. If only. If only you would come. =(

It's on May 16th, and it's already April 14th now. Air ticket to fly back to Bemidji is 555 dollars (by adding another 200++ I can fly back to Malaysia or Europe). If I fly to Minneapolis it will cost me 300 dollars. BUT, I need to rent a car (probably 200 for 3 days as I am holding international driving license and I am under 25) + petrol (60 for return)+ 10 hours for a return trip (priceless, my time is gold) + driving alone is sucks. The total is around 600 dollars. WTH rite? But again, I do not mind paying for it if only someone is there to do road trip with me and that someone must be someone special to me. =_+

So how now brown cow?? A part of me telling me just goooooo but a part of me telling me just stay. And I am damn cheapo lo. I told my supervisor I am not taking any vacation leaves, so no matter what she has to try to fit me into 40 hours of work in 4 days or maybe 3 days.

Haih. enough said. I don't know my decision and don't ask me anything unless you can come up with a brilliant idea for me. thank you very much.

The interview with God

Watch the video guys...
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The original website here : Interview with God
Youtube version here: Interview with God

This little boy at our program I find him rather cute.
He will say Grace before every meal.
Friends always make fun of him.
Today at dinner, I asked him.. "why don't you just pray for everyone?"
Then...He did.
Sweet, isn't it?

Hahahaaaaaa...

I don't know where does the title come from. Haha.

It seems that I only update my blog during my off day. So yea, it's off day again. I spent whole day watching the complete season of Celebrity Apprentice. Those guys have really good brains I would say! And girls... are often too bitchy, always emotional, take things too personally! It's fun to see how 14 egos fighting each other. So many dramas, so many unpredictable results, so many back stabs, so many racist comments... ahHhhh.. interesting. It's 3am now and I am sitting here watching episode by episode, and find times for myself to blog during the commercial. =p

I love multi tasking. while watching the show, I am also blogging, chatting with edwin on his mom's birthday, writing monthly report for my job when I am out of idea what to type here....

Talking about writing monthly report for my client, as in the primary little resident I am working with, I have been procrastinating a lot. Like a lot. I have already gathered all the information, have everything in my mind, but I just could not put all of them together. Oh ya, talking about racist comments earlier, I was really extremely upset the other day when one of this girl said this to me "you stupid Chinese woman know nothing", not one time, not two times, but repeatedly. Honestly, I got very upset and felt very lousy at first and I really took it personally, and it definitely screwed up my 'passion' towards my job for that day. When I got home, I sat down and thought about it. I felt silly, because what she said was true. First, I am a Chinese, so she says nothing wrong about that. Second, I am stupid and know nothing because I can't seem to help her and get her what she wants. So, I felt that instead of getting myself overwhelmed by the words coming from this little girl, I should have used the energy and times to think of a way that I could have helped her better. Jeez, I don't know why I made such a big deal out of it. But well, in the end I was able to make myself to smile again! Weeheee, I am pretty good at doing this. =p

Like seriously lo, you know, everyday we have many many many many stressors coming from everywhere, if you let one of them takes you down, how are you going to manage the rest of your day? When I was in primary school, I was nominated by my class teacher as the most cheerful girl for several years. In high school years, I was voted as class monitors for 5 years as I was referred as the nicey and again the cheerful girl. BUT, the truth is, I wasn't really that happy-go-lucky kinda girl, I was the girl with all kind of worries, and one stupid worry can just take me down like that just that I do not show it. Ask my mom, ask Ted, ask people who really knows me in the past, the first thing I always do is I CRY!! Then, I whine, I complain, I cry again and again.

But, I have learned and changed through this years. Let me ask you, when was the last time you wake up and feel that the sun just shine for you? When was the last time you try to find some fun in your job? When was the last time you TRY YOUR BEST finding some times for yourself? When was the last time you smile and the smile came from your heart? When was the last time you tell yourself everything is possible?

Most of the time we are overwhelmed by so many things. Everything just comes from everywhere, like boom boOm bOOM! When everything get tensed up, slow down your pace, take one thing/step at a time. Or even better, stop and take a look at everything, reevaluate the whole thing, which is the most priority to you, which should comes first, what you should bother and what you should not be bothered by. Seriously la, most of the times we know where our problem is at, we just need a break from the problem. When I say a "break", I am not saying that you have to runaway from the problem, but to take a small break from it. Sometimes we may look at things better when we are out of that box.

These are what I do a lot lately. I call my friends, and I will try not to talk about the problems that is bothering me, you know just have fun just chill with your friends, just chat. When I stress up, I will think of the happy moments that I have with my friends, family. I will just take a short moment think about it, I smile, then I will back to my work! I love to think of the times when my friends sing me song, especially randall, eric, anthony, weiyong...I love to smile, there's no doubt there is this magic thingy in a smile. You find yourself to be happier when you smile more. Try that!! =)

And another thing I hate the most is quitter!! I believe what my ex-boss Mr Ramesh said was true, once you quit you will quit again and again. I also believe that once you have the mindset of quitting or even just a thought of quitting, you will eventually step out of the stress and step into the comfort zone which is quitting. Seriously, don't be a quitter unless you want to quite smoking or taking drugs that kinda stuff. =p

I can't believe is 8am now!! Haha! I did not sleep the whole night! =p And I have finished watching the complete season of Celebrity Apprentice! Haaaaaaaaaaaa..

Ok. Time to bed! Nite! =p

finally!

I finally got my badge from HR after working for so long!

BRS counselor sounds cool isn't it? But actually just doing all shitty works one la! By the way BRS stands for Behavioral Rehabilitation Services.

To you...

For you... the girl who is far far away from me and yet close in my heart.


by Yael Naim - Far Far

Far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something to happen to her
everyday she writes words and more words
just to speak out the thoughts that keep floating inside
and she's strong when the dreams come cos' they
take her, cover her, they are all over
the reality looks far now, but don't go

how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
oh oh oh oh

far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something good to happen to her
from time to time there're colors and shapes
dazeling her eyes, tickeling her hands
they invent her a new world with
oil skies and aquarel rivers
but don't you run away already
please don't go oh oh

how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
how an you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
take a deep breath and dive
there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
There's a beautiful mess
beautiful mess inside

oh beautiful, beautiful

far far there's this little girl
she was praying for something big to happen to her
every night she ears beautiful strange music
it's everywhere there's nowhere to hide
but if it fades she begs
"oh lord don't take it from me, don't take it yourselves"

i guess i'll have to give it birth
to give it birth
i guess, i guess, i guess i have to give it birth
i guess i have to, have to give it birth
there's a beautiful mess inside and it's everywhere

so shake it yourself now deep inside
deeper than you ever dared
deeper than you ever dared
there's a beautiful mess inside
beautiful mess inside