I went back to Pg last wednesday again..of cos I went back with a purpose..my cousin sister wedding..grr..so tired..i reached Kl home at 1:30am last nite..=p So last wednesday after i reached pg (in the evening) straight away went out with friend without going home..sometimes, i think i'm being too much..=p..then thursday..woke up early in the morning to go makan hokkien mee near by my huz, hmm..yummy yummy..then went to work with friend by helping to clean clean n wash wash..fun er..tired but really run..worth it.. perhaps my life can be best described by david's tao "我喜欢".. 我喜欢这样的感觉 我只想要简单的快乐 希望和你一起拥有 轻轻松松的享受 常常欢笑 做个好朋友 我喜欢这样的感觉 我只想要简单的快乐 希望和你一起拥有 轻轻松松的享受 我喜欢开心的感觉 给好心情留一个角落 想想过去想想未来 回到最初的感动 常常欢笑 我的老朋友... =p..Its really great..i had all i want..lok lok..rojak..movies..sup kambing..roti naan..fried rice..hokkien mee..shopping..love..walk walk..work..etc etc..*haha*

Friday.. my cousin wedding...got a suprise visit before heading to alor setar, where the wedding dinner held..ooo..so happy! So, reached there quite late due to my stupid brother..ish.. during da dinner, i realised dat its been really really long since i last met most of my cousins from my mom side..a few new-born babies..they are so cute..made me feel like having my own baby only..*jealous*..=p

Saturday.. I forced myself to stay at home to finish up my readings and assignments although quiny's invitation to gurney plaza really tempting..*haha*..yay..i made it, i finally could sit down at home n study n finish up my works...then during nite i watched malaysian idols..*hehe*..nice show er..bravo bravo..it really doesnt matter to me who won it..

Sunday...woke up quite late then quiny said wanna go to gurney plaza..so we went there and had sushi at sushi king, n looked for our beloved aunt but she wasnt there..too bad..then we sat down at coffee bean n i tried to listen to her story..=p..*hehe*..then later we left for this apartment nearby..oh my god..then everything made me realised dat guys can be really a coward sometimes..frankie..i really look down on you..*ming shakes head*..disappointed..grrr..anyway, girls should be pampered n sayang n guys should listen to girls, but everything has its limit, guy should never never never be like a dog to a girl, its just so "not-guy"..*haha*..wutever it is la..ish ish ish..frankie..ish ish ish...=p.. then later, quiny had to go work n she dropped me home..n my friend picked me up to go kayu then makan then left for Kl again..so sad!

Dis is something for quiny the Oh Hoay Thua..

girl, dun revenge, its only for temporary satisfaction and it wont heal you permanently. The next guy gonna be so innocent and maybe he gonna be da guy who is perfect for you. as for the old guy, just set him free and let them be wutever they wanna be. as a buddhist i guess you should know bout karma very well.. dun let ur parents disappointed k.. i only seen dat guy twice so its not fair for me to judge him..so wutever ur decision is, we will always be here to support u, but never never revenge, it really wont ease ur pain..*hehe*..when you feel like crying, just cry it out loud..or maybe u can come to kl to look for me, i will cry together with u...no no..i wont cry..but i'll give u tissue la..or maybe we can go red box together..missing those times dat me, u, n ted dat always go to redbox right after classes in Inti..yea..we can go sing k together..or or or..maybe we can go shopping!! ask ur dad to give u extra money to shop as u need to give me some of it..muahaha...so..be happy k! It's not only me..you still have Pam the onneh, ah ying, mr yong ..hehe..lots more la..aiyo! =p

Today I missed my class as i only have 2-3 class n its really no point for me to pay 18 bucks transportation fees just to attend one class..=p i'm getting better n better in finding excuses..great! i forgot to mention dat yesterday when i went to Help i met huiling..*hehe*..ling ling u r getting prettier n prettier...really proud of u gal...u r my role model..*haha*..heard da u r preparing for da prom..all da best yea!

So..wut did i do today.. oh ya..i went to Klcc...from 2-8..amazing..i spent plenty of timez in kinokuniya reading..lots of books to buy la..aiyks..really tempting..then was walking around to look for one pressie for my friend..n n n n n i met one stranger.. girls, you guys gotta becareful when u go to klcc alone... so there was one south african guy came up n said Hi..i thought he wanna ask me bout how to get to another place from klcc..so I just said Hi la..this was our conversation.

Brian: Hi.
Ming: Hi.
Brian: Are u a japanese?
Ming: No..I'm a malaysian.
Brian: Wow..but you look like a japanese.. are you still studying..?
Ming: yea..studying.
Brian: is it a university?
Ming: Its kinda university.
Brian: I'm studying too..in a college call "Goon"??( i never heard of it n i dunno wut he was saying too)
Ming: oh ok..
Brian: Can we be friend? i'm Brian.
Ming:oh..i'm Ming
Brian: How old are you..
Ming:21
Brian: wow..but you look like 19..so cute.(aiyk. its disgusting when he said it)
Ming: no..i'm 21..
Brian: do you mind to have dinner together later? you know..i;m single..u r single..do u have a bf?
Ming: yea..i HAVE a bf..=p
Brian: oh ok...can i have your number?
Ming: sorry..i dun think its convenient for me to give you my number..maybe email add?
Brian: is it becos of your bf?
Ming: yea..sorry.. actually i;m kinda rush to another place.
Brian: ok then..hope to see you again..

Then we said bye bye la..girls, gotta be more careful when such guys approach u..cos after i left..i observed him from another corner..i found dat he started to approach another girl..well..no one know wuts his intentions...so..yea..just be smart la...i was quite dumb though..talked so much to him..=p..hehe..after i bought the pressie i walked home..grr..i studied awhile and i came across this..
Can you live a happy life if you continually do things you know deep down are wrong? There are lots of people who lie and cheat and speak ill of others. Are they aware that these things are not right--or fair, if you prefer? Do you think these people are happy?
Socrates didn't. Well, ming did not too..=)

After reading then made a call..suddenly no electricity..it was so dark in here n i was alone at home..luckily da friend over da phone keep me calm..*sigh*.. i dunno when only i will learn to be more independent..shitz..

Today the accounting class nearly makes me go insane..the credit debit thing was so confusing.. dats y i was not concentrating on lectures all da time...then i talked to da girl sitting next to me, n we become friends..*hehe*..when she was in Help, ted used to refer her as "66" girl, n this is our secret code during mass comm class..*muahaha*.hopefully she doesnt know bout dat....anyway, now in different college, friends around calling her different nick name..ppl here call her miss malaysia..*haha*..i wonder why..i need to find out still..oh yea..the accounting class was so damn sienz so me n 66 started to take out our food to eat..she ate a peach, n i shared with her my chocolate cookies..haha..then i took out my notebook to write nonsense...here was something i had written on my book...

a drunken guy

When you're drunk,
every words you speak, you speak with nobility.
and your eyes look exeptionally sexy.
When you're drunk,
every movements of yours are so gentle.
and your voice sounds deep and mature.
When you're drunk,
your singing is so good n it makes me cry
and looking you in dat way it certainly makes me wanna fly high.

*haha*..crapz..i dunno wut am i writing too..=p.. this is da proof dat how boring da accounting class is..=p

while waiting for call (well, dats an excuse..=p..actually i'm just lazying around..i'm so lazy..i'm gonna be dead if i dun start doing my assignments)..i'm here to write something..

If money can buy love, I rather dunwan any love..If material love can last long, I'll chop down my head and let you sit on it...If money really can buy love, why do you need to put so much efforts n timez in love?..If money can buy love, those wealthy uncle will have no difficulity in finding lady and Bill Gates certainly can dates million gfs at one time..=p

Recently, i'm really really sick you know..i have this really really terrible sickness..i have short-term memory lost..It's only takes 5 seconds for me to forget something..really..i guess i need to see doctor..its getting worsen..i'm worry of cos..=(

I'm so sO so 幸福 (xing4 fu2)today..yea..幸福..i dunno wuts da english word for this. I checked on dictionary, its written there "hapiness", but i dun think its da exact word i'm looking for.. anyway..sitting in my dream car today was so great..n looking out from da car n found dat so many ppl get married on mooncake festival..well..last week was my cousin brother engagement party..n this coming week my cousin sister is getting married too.. I used to dream n talk n plan alot about my wedding day..but recently i re-thought bout this, is marriage dat important? I mean is it necessary to get married? I thought bout this during the ethic class when da lecturer ask us to write an essay on why should we or should we not get married.. oops..my mind was blank..i found no reason to get married n i found no reason not to get married. *haha*..well, i mean, wuts da point getting married when you can stay with your love ones happily under one roof even without getting married, and girls always dream bout their wedding day cos they will be treated like a princess on dat day..but you can be a princess or can be treated like a princess everyday if your bf are sweet enough to do so for you..*hehe*..

So I am back from Penang again after so many days..*hehe*..its really fun...I met 4 new friends..they r my "sensei", molly, nino, and nana..muahahaha..they are really cute though..*wink wink*...n now i have more friends..haha..=p during this trip i learned a lot of new stuff..my sensei taught me bout philosophy, ethics, n accounts..well..i'm a dumb dumb student..and i realised dat an intelligent guy or a guy who speaks or talks intelligently can be so attractive..yup..attractive..=p.. again..me mom cook curry fish..pam said da maggie goreng in taipan is best in the world..then to me my mom curry fish is best in da world...=p..its really really good..no doubt bout it..*hehe*..then wut else happening in pg..oh yea..this guy keep on asking me what i want for my 21st birthday..grrr...i really wish for something money cannot buy..=p..yea..i;m dat greedy..*ngek ngek*..dats all for tonight..i'm tired to type..haha..i'm tired but i'm happy! =p

I was told by someone dat I only have one friend in Penang.*LOL*...oh my gosh..I'm so pitiful..yea...I'm dat kesian la...=p..anyway..can't wait for tomorrow to come..*hehe*..yay yay yay yay!!..oh yea..was so glad dat I found a friend to take Lrt n Ktm with me to class.. i'm not lonely anymore...*hehe*..wonder why life've been so good lately..*ngek ngek*.. =p

I never knew that I'd love this place so much. I never knew that I'd miss this place so much. Until the past weekend, I only realised dat I dunwan to leave this place, it's a place dat so great to stay in, I feel so protected staying there, I feel so warm living there, I feel like been *sayang* by everyone during back there.. *hehe*..n not forget bout my family n friends there..n also my aunt n uncle dat brought me to red box..n da sup kambing n my mom's cooking..*hahaha*..yup yup, dats da place dat I wish I can go back more often....---> Penang!!

Hate those people dat look down on people when the people doesnt rich anymore... it's a behavior dat should be punished..i do believe in karma dat one day they will be punished by god..

Today is my very first day in IGS..hmm..nothing special..lots of Help students there, so basically know most of them..da worst thing is..they r all those smart ass when they were in Help..sigh..i need to work harder then.. first class was accounting principle..grrr..i hate accounts, so damn boring..then management class..da lecturer with strong american slang, but da way he teach like a tortoise..then philosophy class..i was late for class..when i just stepped in, da lecturer said..hey girl, you r late for class, i want to know what do you think of life..omg..i was quite for 5 sec, then ronan keating suddenly came across my mind..then i replied to him..sir, life's like a rollercoaster, ups n downs, good times n bad times, no matter what, life goes on..then he said..good good..have a sit please..Phew..~ luckily..thanks to ronan keating..haha.. =p.. my class was from 1pm to 8 at nite..no break in between..muahaha..i'm god..=p..

-Joke-

(This little boy was looking at his friends drawing.)
Boy: Why is an ass face with boobs?
Boy 2: Because she is a bitch.
Boy: How about this? why is an ass face with a dick then?
Boy 2: Ohh..Thats because he is son of a bitch..
Boy: ........

*hahaha*

*...Lots of Great Timez together...*

Just got back from Pelita mamak in Jalan Ampang..went with cousie n we walked there cos its pretty near to our place as we just stay behind nikko hotel..guess wut we saw when we walked back.. while we were walking pass the citibank, there were 2 security guards sitting outside of da bank...both are guys ok..then we saw one of them grabbing the other's balls..*wink wink*...muahaha..keep on grabbing n touching u know..Eew..so so sick of them..we wanna laugh but hmm..we control..control ourselves...*haha*...n my cousie was whispering to me like..ming dun look dun look.. but..i cant help it..i just look la..come'n..who doesnt want to look? *haha*...Eeeeeewwwwwwwww....wut happen to citibank's workers???

...I'm in LOVE with Jack Johnson... been listening to da songs again n again n again. It did help me to "heal" my really stressed mind and body *hehe*.. Woke up early in da morning like maybe 8? agg, my cousie alarm kept on ringing for almost 2o times, its really really noisy. Besides, i got fever, didnt tell anyone as hmm..i dunno..So woke up n continue doing da shifting huz thingy...dust dust n dust..aiyks...While moving stuff i met dis white guy, took da same elevator with me n went into da same huz with me then only i realised he knows my aunt..a really good looking guy..but later i found out dat..hmm..he got a korean gf staying upstair..n recently his gf got pregnant..i was like..wth..hmm..ok ok..its so lucky for him..*hehe*..so later went to dis new huz n found dat there r lots of pretty gals n my neighbour is a korean family..great, so i can get to know more ppl later..*ngek ngek*..then tok on fon with dis guy, sorry 2 make u angry, perhaps u know y i keep on questioning, sigh, wutever, maybe dis is da chance n time u've given me n hope dat i'll change...after done da works in new huz then came back here. my aunt who is a cosmetic surgery doctor, have lots of clients today... seeing those pretty girls come here n hoping dat they will go back with even prettier face, make me wonder y ppl always ask for more n never got satisfied. Hmm, wutever, but seeing everyone come out from da room with a satisfied look then i feel happy for my aunt too. *yawn*..really really tired today, just finish da cleaning job, grr, lots of exercise though...hehe..now enjoying my sweets dat got from someone, it's exceptional sweet becos its from u..muahaha...anyway, so sorry to those friends dat i didnt reply to u guys msg for these 2 days, been really really tired n busy n lazy, haha, got lots of excuses one..oh yea, my cousin was telling me this, got excuse no success, no excuse got success...hahaha

Today been so crap..crap crap crap..and i'm mad mad mad...damn tired n stressed..*sniff sniff*..

-My Daily Boring Life-

I'm so tired today, exhausted..woke up early in da morning (thanks 2 someone 4 waking me up..muahaha), slept at 3 last nite as waiting 4 ppl to call..but i guess i didnt sleep quite well as I started to have home sick, although the bed here is way much comfortable than the one at home..i dunno y i always find dat cheap mattress is more comfortable than those freaking expensive one, like da one in Spb..*hehe*.. So woke up n took a bath n went to my aunt new huz, its still under renovation, its some where in kuchai lama, damn near to ted;s aunt huz, although this place is like so damn far from college, i love the place though, with big n nice swimming pool, fresh air, nice trees, nice view, etc etc..*haha*..after dat aunt drop me at midvalley ktm, dats when all those spooky n freaky stuff happens..She dropped at a place dat got no entrance to da Ktm station..so I have to walk across into one of the midvalley parking lot..while i was crossing da road i almost met an accident..i didnt notice well enough there was a car dat came to my way so so fast, n it was raining heavily dat time, so i just ran n cross da road, while i was crossing half way i only realised dat SHIT i will get knock down if i dun run faster, so i speed up my pace, well, too bad, i fell down, luckily da car did stop immediately, so i faster stood up n walked into da parking lot while da car driver kept on honking me..*idiot*..well, i'm saying myself..*haha*.. so i finally managed to get in to da station n headed to da destination, which was serdang. Damn, was raining heavily when i reached there, so i talked on fon pretty long to wait for da rain to stop. when da rain stop i asked da ppl there how to get to South City Plaza, n da person was like "Walk? jauh sangat la.." so i took a taxi n it took me 5 bucks for such a short distance. Then go tru da registration stuff n took a ktm back to midvalley. Been walking in high heels for whole day. Although it;s tiring, da journey today have gotten me come to realise that I was so strange to this place, KL. I didnt really come to appreciate n notice n learn about dis place in the past one year, I realised dat i have neglected so much bout this place, been concentrating too much on studies n my love life. So, today was sitting inside da train (dis was my very first time!) observing da ppl around, its really interesting to look at ppl like wut r they doing n stuff..*hehe*..So dats all 4 today..it's almost 9, i have to wait 4 my aunt n cousies 4 dinner..we gonna have vegetarian steamboat..yummy yummy....

-sOme words been running around my brain-

You've been asking me what i want for my 21st birthday, if i could wish for something from you, i hope you dun lie anymore, it's aint cool..really..=)..anyway..i know wut to get u for ur 21st birthday..if i can do it, i'd be really happy for myself too..=p..its strange n weird u know..i know how much u care for me, like yesterday when u sending me off, i can see it from ur eyes (a bit perasan d..haha).. you know wut..aiyks..i better dun write it here..=p

-Wish List-

umbrella can be folded one

the billabong sch bag (although i dun like aussie stuff..haha)

an intelligent mind -muahaha

The Zahir by Paolo Coelho

I love this picture so so so much...like we are advertising for KFC..muahaha..anyway..yup..elaine n pam..we had lots of fun!!! but if with u guys around sure we will have more fun..=p

Best Mom Award goes to.....Jamie's mom...woohooo...

I met him the other day at gurney plaza. I'm kinda surprised when I dun see any girls beside him. I mean, he was alone. And I was alone too. I was window shopping while waiting for my aunt after work. Then i saw him at 2nd floor? but I didnt approach him, instead I quickly hide myself by walking into FOS immediately. I dunno why I did that, I was shy to see him I guess as it;s been some times since the last time I met him. So, I am surprised that he did not bring any girls along with him. *haha*..Well, I'm not exceptional happy for not seeing any girls with him, just dat it;s just weird...Cos he is always good in "sweet-talking", so many girls die on his hand..yup..i was one of them..damn..well, we used to be really good friends, seldom meet, always chat online, he treated me like someone special, but due to he always have lots of girls around him so he asked his best friend to take care of me when he is not around..so, as times went by, I talked to his friend more than him. Although we seldom chat or meet up, every meeting with him will always makes my day. So..there was one day.. he asked me whether wanna visit a famous chinese temple in penang with him, he said he got something to talk to me..weird..y not on da fon or icq, then of cos i didnt go with him..muahahaha..So when we chat he asked me to be his gf, i said yes wihout much thinking..well, was too young n naive back then..haha..Ever since we were together, we only met once, not even went out, dats even worse than we were friends. We met only once outside my sch during valentine's day..i dunno y, everytime he asked me out i refused to go, it;s just weird, weird n weird..=p..days by days...after 3 months...he seldom call me...then later he didnt even call..n i didnt call him too...so i assumed dat it;s a sign of break up..well, i was not sad or upset or disappointed at all..i guess dats not "love" kua..haha..cos i dun have any special feeling for breaking up...moreover, none of my friends know we were together either..only his friends knew bout it..funny huh..=p wutever la...then we met up when he joined our tuition class, at first he was shy to talk to me, but after he knew i'm totally ok bout it then we become good friends like we used to be again...but things changed again when we step into college life, we went into different path of life n since then we seldom chat until today we almost lost contact....*sigh*

from hui ling journal..

things that are unreachable are the most beautiful things...

well, i used to agree with this..but recently..i dun think so..i guess it's more like a phrase dat keep us feel "good" or a phrase dat comfort us when we cannot get something dat we wanted to get..*hehe*..anyone agree?

woohoo..i'm back..i'm doin this for elaine again..cos i know she is sien sien in perth..=p elaine..i'm here bugging your hubby n ur baby..haha..no..i'm actually here to see whether he is noti noti or not..=p so..it;s been a month in penang i guess..but most of da timez i'm not staying at home..it;s either aunt huz, friends huz, or kl..yup..i went to kl last week for 3 days...then last tuesday i went there with friends again..it shows dat i'm not sick with kl still..haha..nah..it's not becos of my friends i wont be there..=p i had lots of fun with them lo..seriously..hehe..but da weather in kl suck a big time..

I am happy becos

my friends are always there for me

I received gummy bears from xiao xiao jian

get to go to kl with my best friend, good friends..

get to eat good foods in penang..

got someone who cares for me so much..

learning new stuff everyday..

filled with loves everyday....

get to start an independent life soon..

I am sad becos

i miss da dogs at gap huz..

i dun get to talk on fon with sean dat much..

hotlink eat my money...haha

i miss da timez in college studying..

dats all dats all..life should be carefree n fun..nothing worth to be sad of..=p

bilibala bilibala...here;s something for u to read elaine..=p..i know u r damn boring here..muahaha

I'm back lo, yup, back in penang. it;s been 8 days. lets see..last saturday, meet up gap n andrew in ali, so sorry andrew for making ur car dirty..aiyks..*malu*..sunday, dinner with ted;s family, his dad now can sing better n better..woohoo..monday..tuesday..wednesday..thursday..friday..saturday..sunday..i cant really rememeber wut had i done..but i guess my life been revolving around penang's food, ted, gap, andrew, elaine, willett..yea..dats all..haha..damn boring rite..grrr..think so..someone please come n rescue me..i'm dying in penang..i'm in willett house now..with elaine beside..both of us got nothing to do..so pitiful..stupid willett is playing piano downstair..its getting annoying..haha..=p..i;m waiting to go to thailand..aghh..missing the fried chicken there..n other food as well..too bad cannot go to angkor wat with gap..=(..i wanna travel so badly..staying at home make me start thinking of useless stuff..ergg..but i;m tired of crying..i realised dat it pointless pleasing ppl now..i guess start from now like wut gap said i should just please myself, put myself in the first priority (isnt dat YOU want me to?)..but sometimes, i feel like this is kinda selfish, irresponsible, like what i think YOU are now..=).. sometimes, i think dat life is so meaningless..but when i look at my friends when i think of them, they make me feel dat there's still hope in this damn freaking lonely planet..haha..neway..really gotta thank gap..always be there..thanks for scolding me n waking me up, but those words i have came across thousand times, yup, like pam said, mind over matter, i have to stop lying to myself..=(..n sean, i should;ve listened to u earlier, yup, it hurts so badly rite now..*sigh*..guess i will be stupid no more..enough is enough..yup..so i'll start bugging all my friends rite now..=p.. so today willett n elaine will be the first victim..muahaha...=p..*thinking inside my heart..willett..stop playing da piano..i cant concentrate here, stop playing dat stupid Hero song, there's no hero in my life..=p*..ish..wondering why gap goes to kelantan, maybe there's another big big field like padang polo..haha..

leaving KL soon..pretty soon..ya..it's on friday..to all my KL frenz, i'm leaving..to all my Penang frenz..i'm coming home!! busy packing these few days (ted must be saying..Ya rite..=p), well, i'm afraid ted's car will not be having enough space for my stuff n his stuff..while i'm packing things, i'm like..WUT? i really have this much of things ar...yup..*die*..i guess da first thing when i reach home, mom gonna kill me for seeing dat i actually have dat many pairs of shoes..not many really..it's only about 30 something pairs there..=( 3 big pillows, 2 bolsters, 5 small ikea pillows, 2 comforters, bedsheetS...2 luggages and a basket of clothes..and the list go on...anyway, ted..u got lots of stuff too la! =p

I guess i'm gonna miss most of my frens in KL..hui ling..suz..jon..g...they r always my best pal in college..ling ling...really appreciate the times dat u actually tried ur best to cheer me up, cook me porridge when i'm sick..buying me gift all the timez, even on me n ted;s anniversary..=p..jon, thanks for always fetching me to class, seems dat you always got interupted by me when u r sleeping..missing those days dat we always hang out together..sunday market especially...*hehe*..gunbound days..=)..suz..well..u r da smart girl, meow meow..woof woof..i guess i'll be missing da timez dat we gossiping together..u showed me dat u really care n i really really appreciate it..u help me on my work, n u help me on my probs..u r such a sweet girl..=)..G..*haha*..i didnt forget u after da design class..=p..thanks for picking me up all da timez..u r such a sweetie to ur gf n ur frenz..glad to know u..=)..of cos not fogetting SEANy..=p..i'll surely miss da timez dat we spent countless nitez on phone talkin n talkin..well, u make me laugh..n u make me smile...u should be proud of this, k? cos i barely smile n laugh these dayz..n i'm start missing ur voice, ur jokes, i guess? it;s gonna be hard for me n u to tok when i;m back in Penang..phone bill sucks..i guess its gonna be like those times back in my high sch timez..=p

hmm..not forgetting my housemates here in 8B..sweet, sour, bitter..i guess we experienced it all..though most of our relationships are fading, but i guess deep within our hearts, we surely care for each other still..missing those times back in last year..things started to change since this year..things change..people change...this is life..isn't it? i'm missing those "seniors" in the house, yam hiah, wai sin, xiao ming, han fei..they're always like my big sisters..joanna, i miss those nitez dat we chat non-stop everynite until 4 or 5 in the morning..elyn..u too..chatting with u r fun too, da perhentian trip gonna be unforgettable, hope dat you learn to see things out of a box, dun always think dat ppl r bad to u, just dat we need timez to know a person, afterall you earn a good friendship from yam hiah, isn;t it? oh ya, missing the nitez we went clubbing altogether..=).. delonia, janice, judy...too bad dat i dun have enough time to get to know u guys well, i surely miss a lot of good stuff from u guys.. ally, i dun really know u well, really, but thanks for being there, i understand ur situation, being a roomate with hue yeen, it;s hard dat i can tell u all my stuff..so..hope u understand...lastly, hue yeen..i dunno..i dunno how much u still believe in me..but i dun really care..we used to be such a good frenz to each other but things change..but my mind is still clear enough to differentiate between love n friendship..yea, i have to admit dat sometimes i really really hate you, but sometimes, i do think dat i cannot judge you becos of this shitz, cos we used to be such a good frenz, n i surely know how good u r when we r frens...u said u cry for me..although i seem like i dun care, well, it;s not true..if u do read my blog, u should know dat i care n when i;m writing this, tears are dropping from my eyes, cos i know dat i lost a good fren n i lost a bf..been trying to rescue this frenship, but i dunno u ever realised dat..just wanna say dat if only me one person dat wanna rescue this friendship, it'll never gonna work..it need 2 person, you n me..=)

Phew..~ enough of soppy soppy stuff...been going visiting around KL these days..ted..thanks a million, for bringing me everywhere dat i wanted to go..never said i dun appreciate it cos u dunno how much i appreciate it deep down inside my heart..i tot u r the only one can read my heart, but u didnt..so sad..=p..well..i'm sure we gonna miss da late-nite yau cher hor, burger king, ali maju, movies...everything..*hehe*...well..leaving on friday, but i'll be back for da university application stuff, so i guess i will be meeting up my frenz here in Kl again..=)

Today...my energy meter in friendster..is full again..

-summary-
The Bottom Line
Yes, this is a super day, you're a super babe, and you've got super powers!
In Detail
If anyone knows how wonderful relationships can be, it's you. Of course, you're also familiar with how equally difficult they can be when one party -- or worse, both -- won't compromise. Just such a situation is currently playing out before your very eyes, giving you only one option: to either become directly involved and give it your all to help, or to categorically bow out, which has never been your style.

i miss you..no..i dun miss you..ya..i miss you..no..aiyks..i dunno..everything is so confusing...i miss you when only i need you..no..certainly not so...aiyks...i dunno..

so you dun believe me...even just a phone call..you never trusted me after all..do you? yea..i'm da girl dat pretending all the time..other girls are just so innocent, they dun lie, they dun fake it, they are so real...=)

been thinkng a lot lately..about a few terms..they make me confuse...so confuse..

*love* is true love exists? wut is love? is it worth being stupid for love? love is blind?
*possession* wuts da characteristic of being possessive? wut makes you think one person is being so controlling?
*decision* wut makes a good decision? when you make a decision, who do u think of first? yourself? or others?
*truth* are we supposed to tell the truth to the one you trusted? the one they considered themselves as your "friends"?
*Lies* is every intentionnally false statements considered as lies? or is there big lie and small lie?
*trust* should we trust the person you trusted blindly? why we should trust another person that doesnt believe in you?
*selfishness* should we consider for others? or concern chiefly with one's own personal profit or pleasure?
*pity* is it worth pitying someone that dont appreciate you at all?
*regret* living in regret? or never lived in regrets?
*revenge* by doing this is it will bring you hapiness?
*hapiness* wut can makes a person happy? are we really happy even we wear a smile on our face?
*fairness* is Libran always look for fairness? should one person treat you equally without favoritism and discrimination?
*friend* who makes a good friend of yours? who only can be considered as a friend of you?

Living in confusion...being stupid for love...so sweet...yet...so bitter..

Another thought..dun pretend like u r an innocent when u r not..

Missing the time in Bukit Tinggi...=)
Thank you...Gap..for being the driver..
Thank you...Andrew for having the idea to go there..
Thank you...the rest..for tagging along..*haha*

Suat, good luck on the new job n take care urself in Uk..hehe,..all da best..hope to see u soon..*muacks* 

life sucks. Why am i so stupid to care how are you going to feel? why am i so stupid to care that you gonna get hurt so much? why am i so stupid to even bother how things will turn out as i know i will get nothing in return? why am i so stupid to try to protect you as you had done so many shitty things behind me, you created things that dont even exists, you ruined my reputation among my friends, you said things that you shouldnt have said n most importantly you steal away the one i once loved so much n you feel no guilty at all.. why am i being so stupid? there's onnly one reason, cos you n me, we are girls, i feel the exact way like how u gonna feel, dat feeling is really sucky n yucky.. why do i even bother? i dunno.. in the end, wut did i get? full of SHITZ..I'm regret that i didnt revenge, wut on earth that you worth for me for treating you so nice (i bet u didnt realise this)? i wonder...

If die is the only way to solve every problems, the only way to make everyone happy, the only way not to let my parents worry bout the financial thingy, the only way to satisfy you n me, i guess this is the only choice i will make.

I cook chicken rice today, and it surprisingly turn out quite nice, can still be improved though..neway..hope you love it..=)

Sean Ch'ng( or Ching?) SER-MENG!!.. Happy Birthday boy(yucks!)..finally..23 years of life...i admire the way you lead your life, i admire the way you walk thru the sucky sucky love probs, i admire you on the fact that you are being optimistic about your life. i know you do read my blog, so i decided to give u a shout-outz, see..i care about you..never said i dun care, k? never said someone dun care bout things as someone sometimes dunno how to show it out, if u said so, it'll be so unfair to them..*hehe*..neway..Seany (new name for u..muahaha), all da best to you k?hope that you will get da job dat u wan in hong kong, hope dat you will get a girl that can be trusted( i know i know, stop hinting me, i shy..=p)..*hehe*...well, happy birthday la.. since it;s ur birthday, tell u something honestly...well..you are a nice guy..really..(blek..phooi phooi phooi)..haha..take care la!

The next thing i will do to you is..point a middle finger to you..that;s the thing i'm learning..again, you'll be the first one and you should feel proud..=) *dun piss me off*

Don't make me mad, Don't make me angry, Don't make me go insane..
If you do, I will assure you that you will be the first one that i greet you F U C K - U..=)

staying in genting for 4 days 3 nites..arent we crazy? if not for meeting up all da old friends, i guess i will gone nuts if stayed there for so long...haha..anyway, it;s great to meet up suat, lik, shant, ah ju, n ah yeow..they are crazy, they are nuts, always come up with those jokes dat can make you laugh non-stop..haha..
me, ted n lik reached genting on thursday nite, we didnt do much stuff on dat nite, just went for dinner together n back to room to play cards, as ah yeow brother was sick..on friday, we woke up quite late, took lunch in da food court n we went to the outdoor theme park. n we took this picture where we are supposed to post some stupid post..haha..arent we all look cute? yup, we had lots of fun in the theme park although i didnt try da flying coaster n da space shots, ok, i'm quite chicken, i do agree with dat..*haha*...at nite, we went for dinner at burger king n kfc, da kfc in genting surprisingly taste so good...then ted n suat have to go for a concert, so we all stayed back in da room..everyone was sleeping at first then yeow suggested to go to casino..*dang*..i was rejected from da casino, do i look dat young? hello!!..i;m going to be 21..aiyks..dat police asked me to come back after my birthday..nvm nvm..so we all waited for ted n suat to come back then they wanna go clubbing, me n ted wanna go back to room n eat cup noodles, n we wait n wait n wait for them, cos they said they just wanna go have a look at da club..n we wait n wait n wait again...until we fall asleep...haha..so when they came back they called us, but i found dat ted was sick, he got fever (yes, you are, just dat u were so sleepy at dat time)..suat brought him panadol pill n we supposed to meet them again after 5 min, but we fell asleep again..=p..so when we woke up it's saturday! so sad, it;s da day they gonna go back, so we had lunch together before they all going back.. n we took another picture before they left..

hope dat we can meet again when we are ack in penang..so after they left, me n ted went to indoor theme park, gosh, we were so childish, n i guess kids can play better than us..hehe..ted played this shooting game..aiyks..see this picture..

haha..cannot grow up..=p..but it's ok..cos i see everyone playing this..=p..one thing we noticed in genting is, there are so many ha beng n ah lian in genting..oh my god..uncountable..=p..u know wut..we were sitting at da coffee bean n we didnt even notice one guy n one girl dat are really good looking..so sad..i didnt get to wash my eyes..haha...then went shopping..ted bought 3 polo-t..it's really really nice, cos i chose it..muahaha..i were so tired of walking..haih..cos we walked a lot for whole day..hehe.. ...to be continued..wanna watch movie now..haha...

i was so tired yesterday..went to one-utama for lunch at kfc with ted n gap..n we watched initial d after lunch..not bad not bad,,.quite funny er..then we went to pudu n kl sentral to get bus tickets, n then headed to auntie kath house...wooo..i love the dog..so so so cute...n chat with auntie kath n we surely learned a lot of stuff from her...n the carrot cake from her is really really really really really nice..i guess i finish half of it..=p...then later went back to gap house..ted n gap were playing biting game, siao one, must be very pain..haha..dinner with uncle n we went to one utama to catch another movie which was war of the worlds..n it's suck..i guess i was almost fall asleep at some points..haha..the only thing i like is tom cruise..yea..dats all..=p..today..fetch gap to pudu, he is going back..aww..hopefully he is coming back next week again..haha..watch "unleashed" with ted n i fell asleep again..i'm so tired lately..i dunno why..must be dun have enough of sleepz..then went tp midvalley to get some food for genting tmr..seriously, genting food is so expensive, so have to buy cup noodles..hehe..then fetch sean meeng..gonna watch football laterz..so..till then!

*sob sob*..bye bye GeTz..this morning was da last time i get to drive as ted's brother wanna exchange car with him..too bad..i dunno how to drive this manual bmw..ish...wutever la, gonna back to penang soon afterall..hehe..ted had a presentation today n he scored a perfect ten..dang..he is always dat smart (only if he wanted to)..=p..neway..me, gap n ted went out today..gap wanna get his new visa n we waited for him in da menara tan n tan..haha..then we headed to Klcc to meet up auntie kat..she is such a pretty girl, nice n friendly as well..smart too i guess..=p..she treated us "lunch" at mdm. kwan..damn..this is a nice one..really..i was damn damn damn full...da nasi lemak taste like heaven..da curry fish head is damn big..haha..of cos we cannot finish everything..arghh..so nice so nice..*sweet*..we had our lunch until 6 in the evening? yea..we were there for quite long..later we went for window shopping as gap wanna get something for his sis n cousiez birthdays...oh yea..da parking fees was freaking expensive..9.50..alamak..=p..wanted to go to hartamas but gap said he is sleepy..so..i guess we are meeting up tmr again..=p

yesterday n today were so great..had lots of fun with ted's family..his family is always da best..da lamest jokes, da ultimate jokes, aiyks, wutever la, they are funny all da time..too bad i'm not part of their family anymore, but we are cool about it...they r still welcome me as much as they used to be i guess...*not shy*..haha..neway, we went to ikea, seemed dat whoever dat been to ikea will fall in love with dat place..haha...i ate a lot these two days...yea.. damn a lot..i'm damn full now..becos of dat steamboat...hehe..oh yea..gap is in Kl again..woohoo..which means dat i wont be bored for this entire week!! great..everything was so great!!

i dunno..today..kinda weird...sleepy all da time..like no direction..miserable..worthless..pointless..useless..suddenly i feel like i'm da spoilt brat in the family..people studying here..but i'm like doing nothing here..grrrr...sometimes..when one person got nothing to do or too free, he/she tends to think too much..like me at this moment..haha..i guess i just need friends.. a lot a lot of friends around me..gosh..i miss everyone so much...hmm..nevermind one more week..i will have all my friends with me..hehe..cant wait to meet everyone...yeahooo...hmm..missing those bbq times...aiyks..i wanna go back to penang!!! penang is always da best..i guess everyone will agree with this...hehe

nothing much happen today..class at 10..but i went at 12 with G..haha..we were late..as usual..=p.. so sienz with da project..anyway..i woke up at 9:30 today n i finished 2 pages in one hour..not a bad progress..muahaha..self-praising..*not shy*..after class do some reading..oops..its magazine..not text book..haha..had a short nap..then watch tv..really nothing much happen today..such a boring day..=(

*aiyks*..my friends went back to penang dee..hehe..it;s only half day and i miss them already..=p..i miss da doggie in gap house...so cute er them..big but cute..at least they dun bite me..been to many places these few days...genting..bukit tinggi..furniture shops(haha)..spent 90 minutes in midvalley car park with gap..haha..erm..petaling street..hartamas..kl town..ikea..one utama..oops..a lot of places too...aiyks..i wanna go out with them again..it seems so fun to hang around with them..lots of laughter..keke..but tired though...=p

i'm back!!.. had lots of fun for da past 2 days with gap, wei yong, altui tan n wife, ah wee n wife..haha..went to a lot of places n definitely had lots of fun too..=p..i'll write bout it tomorrow..too tired for this for da moment..=p

ahh..so happy today...my bestest friend finally is here in KL...=p..gap n altui tan finally came here to look for me..yea..look for me only..muahaha..*perasan*.. lots of fun today..we went to one utama..gap, altui tan n wife went for rock climbing demo..too bad i didnt join them..i really want to..cos it looks fun..=p...so so happy...cos its been some times since we last met..maybe 2 years? yea..=(...hehe..after one utama we went for dinner with gap's dad..nice one..really nice..i was so full..=p...thanks uncle..it;s really really nice...=p..cant wait for tmr to go out with them again!!
anyway, today when i check my friendster, my energy meter for Libra, it;s full again..haha..life these days been really good though..=p..i cannot deny dat..

see wut is written there...*ngek ngek*.. 

my energy meter for today..full again!!! 

nice one..i wanna have one pic like dat for myself too..*dreaming*..=p 

can u guys see dat? da energy meter..all full..such a good day for today..*kekeke*,..as if i believe dat.. 

wanted to wake up at 8 to finish my project,..yup..as usual..i woke up at 11 plus..haha..*shy*..haih..i dun have inspiration to finish up my second project..its gonna be suxx..u know wut..i've got a new pet..it's a bitch..yup..haha..bitch..=p..i dunwan to be mean..but its so true..*argh*..today is wednesday...haiyo..how many days do i still have to wait for altui tan them? haih...i wanna go out..so badly..=p..ish ish..i learn a lesson today..hmmp..dun ever try to show off..cos u dunno wut gonna happen on u one day.. we better be humble and modest...*hehe*

i found out something...there's a doggie following ppl around here..*woof woof*..aiyks..nothing much happen today..i'm ok already..i;m not sick anymore..hehe..i'm waiting for gap, altui tan to come to visit me..hehe..aiyks..friday..so long still...this semester i'm so so so free..if i can finish my project by this week..basically i will be damn free for another month or so..haha..been thinking where to go during end of the semester...hehe..cant wait for elaine n willett to come..so we can go out together with pammy...*hehe*..fun man...=p...but u guys better not ppk me..ok?=p

jeng jeng jeng,..i'm sick..haha..last nite when i was talking on fon i thought dat i was hungry then...later when i hung up da fon i realised dat i got gastric..ouch..da stomach so so pain..u know blender? yea..my stomach is like da blender...keep on processing n blending..haha..this morning i cooked porridge and i ate it with seaweed paste...n i vomit..so gross..eew...so yucks...haha..but taste nice i guess..=p...been feeling dizzy whole day but i guess i'm much more better now..yea..i'm ok la...hehe..huiling's porridge is really really nice woe...so many friends dat care for me i should have learn to take care of myself better..yea...hehe..i wont make you guys worry ok? =p

today was so...dead..sien until i wanna cry dee...suz drop me in sungei wang...went there to get a few dvd n magazines..then back to this boring place..aiyks...met a stupid lousy taxi driver..i dun look like a malay girl ok UNCLE...damn...aiyks..which part of me look like a malay girl...aiyoo...spoil my day only...i had my brunch at 6...dats da time when my housemates asked me out to makan..muahaha...hungry until wanna die dee...aiyks..dat nasi lemak ayam damn nice er...n da mango juice...giant size one...yummy yummy..but i cannot finish it..=(

missing those times...back in inti.. 

i love muh lips...so much..*muacks* 

i woke up at 11 today..yea..i know..i'm piggy ler..hehe..slept at 4 last nite..crapping with sean again..haha..i guess we both dunno wut we were talking about all the time...its interesting when two tak tahu malu people talking to each other..haha..woke up...had lunch...lazying around..cleaning up my room..basically just dump all da text books and notes inside a box so dat someone will help me bring back to penang later...aiyks..i got lots of stuff ler...a lot of rubbish also...i dunno how am i going to bring these stuff back to penang... anyway..things go well today..kind of la..i listened to lots of music..from linkin park to michael bluble...muahaha..not bad huh... took a lot of tak tahu malu pictures alone...i realised dat i got nice long silky black hair with a bit cacat highlights...hahaha...i read too..i read...psychology reference book..muahaha..i think i've gone crazy...nah..i just want to make sure i still remember everything...and of cos..i remember not much of it...so sad..haha

i'm so tired...really tired...*peace*

i really dun love shopping anymore..how sad is it...

*aiyks*...my brain gonna black out soon...so tired..so sick..my stomach...aiyks..keep on processing...it;s not about lao-sai-ing thing now..its just ..arghh...pain..inside me..muahaha..not fun ok..dizzy+stomach pain pain+tired+blur+sap ha sap ha+stim = me..
no strength to type dee..till then..=)

today was so slow...so slow..like tortoise only..=p..went out with suzanne today..you are so sweet..for having lunch with me..haha...i was really really hungry though..we went to bangsar village and we had asam laksa in laksa shack...oh my god...i think its becos i was too hungry n i straight away eat laksa.., and..me stomach is damn pain rite now...i lao sai so many times today..after da laksa..i vomit just now...*ngek ngek*..gonna slim down then..but i really dun feel well la..haiya...

KACHUAK!!..hehe..thanks for accompanying me for whole day woe..although u were not here with me..thought dat you will come to Kl with sean meeng..aiyks..so so disappointed...=p..nvm la..at least..you talked to me for whole day..aiyks..how can you tahan for sitting in front of your comp for whole day ar? amazing..haha..me too actually...blek~...anyway..kachuak..just to tell you dat...think about it ok..its better think about it right now than regret later...rite? =)..just take your time la..

Nothing much happen today..quite a boring day...i'm so lazy lazy lazy....some one pls help me..haha..dunno wuts wrong with my gold fish..there are something green green on their heads..are they sick? hmm..i dunno...*stupid owner*...

I;m so sleepy...i only slept for 4 hours last nite..thanks to stupid sean..we were crapping all the nite..thanks for listening to me woe..anyway..i wont forget the city bayview free voucher from you one...=p

i wanna leave this place..this heart-break apartment...one month to go...aiyks...been dreaming going to states since i was a kid..shouldnt be here since last 1 year..becos of dat stupid never-ending financial problem..god should throw some money for me...just not to waste such talented person like me...=p..sometimes when i see those rich kids dat never appreciate the money given by their parents, how i wished their money just give it to me..=p..aiyks..i wanna go iowa state uni..or nebraska...i dunno..but i prefer iowa...if i have enough money..i wanna go big city...like california..florida...n of cos new york..=p..there;re a lot a lot of stuff i'm gonna do when i'm in states..hehe..too many stuff to experience..too many stuff dat i wanted to do.. i wanna travel around, meet new ppl, wal-mart shopping, beaches, white guys..black guys..muahaha.......

anyway..gonna have four months holiday before going off...i'm not too sure wut to do yet..definitely gonna meet up those good old friends first..i wanna go for language class..but i dunno which one to continue...japanese or french..or maybe spanish..=(..tough decision..i wanna work too..dunno who wanna hire me..hehe..i wan good pay..n no need to stand too long one..ahaha..in these 4 months..i wanna eat all good foods in penang...n i wanna slim down..haha..me n ted are challenging each other..he have to gain muscle..then i have loose weight..woohoo..nice deal..isnt it?

Sean-meeng just called...coming to kl tomorrow..hopefully chowlih will be coming too!! then we can sleep together..hehe..we gonna have fun i guess..=p

french vanilla is really really nice...*muacks*....this afternoon was the first time i had one solid lunch after so many days...hehe..i cook macaroni and cheese with steamed broccoli...erm..taste ok only lo..cos i not dare to put too much butter n cheese..*fat fat*..hehe..aiyks..my comp kena spyware..=( ..i dunno how to repair it..so i reformat my whole comp..damn..i just downloaded a movie yesterday..now i have to re-download again..so sad..!!

i looked tru my f5 autograph just now...n i found this...from gap.."It takes minute to find a friend, an hour to find a good one but it takes one lifetime to find a friend like you." i guess it takes some times to realise da friend beside you is a betrayer too...=p

woohoo...i went to Ikea today..lots of new stuff..so cute..so nice...irresistable...too bad i;ve lost interest in shopping.. i dun really like shopping anymore..i see stuff i really like but i can totally ignore them..=(..walking alone in a shopping mall..observe things around..not too bad also...
went to Ikano then...i bought two gold fish...they are so cute!!! its only two bucks for one..hehe..hope dat they dun die fast..at least accompany me for one month..haha...went to lecka-lecka...n bought 500g of galeto....french vanilla is damn nice!!!..i never thought dat i will like vanilla dat much..haha...i chose two flavors..another flavor is my all time favorite..hehe..which is carribean mix...sweet..so sweet...hehe...

The guy who loves you, always tells you not tothink too much, because they already plans it foryou, he wants to give you the best life in the future,he wants to give you a suprise, believe him that hecan do it.

The guy who really loves you, will feel that,sometimes, something had to be told for only once,because he thought that you might had alreadyunderstand him, if talk so much, he will feel thatthere's nothing you will cherish.

The guy who loves you, don't like little toys liketeddy bears, but he will always put the bear yougave himbeside his bed.

so happy but now so lonely...

Day started a lil bit fast today..no no no..it's i didnt really sleep at all..thanks to gap..woke me up in da middle of the night n let me saw things dat i dunwan to see..so bad..middle of the night talking bout going to taman negara..WUT?? tok to me bout taman negara n genting at this period of time? ahh..me heart so pain!! =(..anyway..gap..hmm..i know u guys wan me to relax myself..thanks alot..maybe i'll think about it later..but definitely not now..hehe..sorry if i sound a little bit harsh last nite, i didnt meant dat..=)

anyway..this morning went really well..aww..so sweet..n afternoon too..i had a short nap just now..but da weather is so hot today..kinda hard to sleep...well..just hope dat things gonna go well later...=)..

the picture of them it's so not right..i mean..they are so different..so different...but nothing within my control now..=)

*had papaya bath today...and..swim during rain...it's always feel so good after doing these two things..
*trying to pick up da pieces of my broken heart
*no one around can be trusted..so sad!!
*people always making up untrue things to hurt you..so bad!!
*how i wish all my friends were here in da same time...
*i'm so lonely...so lonely...

You may win him as a person...but you may not win his heart....

:::everyone think that you're not that bad afterall..why you wanna make yourself look bad..why do you have to be so mean..?:::

nEw wIsh liSt..

::hope dat this one month will end soon::

::go back to penang::

::watch cinderella man & Mr. n Mrs. Smith::

::have fun in kl for da last few days in kl::

::late-nite mamak or burger king::

::wake up!wake up! not only me..but the ppl around too::

Lonely I'm Ms Lonely,I have nobody,For my own
I'm so lonely, I'm Ms. LonelyI have nobody,
For my own, I'm so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got that one good guy whose always been there like yaKno took all the bullshit then one day he cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my boy wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for him I wasFeenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuzEver since my boy left me, my whole life came crashin

Cant belive I hadda boy like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuckAround and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good boy and I had no right, IReally wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life

boy I'm so lonely , I'm Ms. Lonely, I have nobody,To call my own boy

Been all about the world ain't neva met a guy that can take the things that you been throughNever thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing uCuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the guy of my dreams that made meBe so happy but now so lonely

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing boy andCome on home ,baby boy I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id everHurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

I'm so lonely, I'm Ms. Lonely , I have nobody , To call my own

Willett:" Anyway, today I heard a bad news from ming....it is now confirmed. Both of them are officially done case!!! Anyone out there....if you see this, Eng Ming is now SINGLE!!! Grab while you can...... this is once in the lifetime opportunity!!! (too bad that I already have, if not...hehe...I will queue up too man..). "

p/s: nice thought of you willett..hehe..anyway..i'm not looking for a new one..=)..single rocks!..haha..you should be glad u have elaine..ooo..wut a loving couple you guys r..hehe

Just because two people argue, it does not mean they don`t love each other and just because they don`t argue, it does not mean they love each other~ Annonymus

Thought of the moment:- i'm all grown up..and theres no looking back now..=)

hApPy eNding..

hApPy eNding..
the fairy tales stop here...a new life begin from here...
i'm glad dat a decision is finally made...me n ted are now friends.. some friends of mine might be happy with this decision, some may be not...anyway..sorry to let you guys down..especially willett n elaine..i didnt keep on holding on to this relationship..but i never gave up for all these while...i guess its time to decide and move on... i dunwan to hurt each other so much in the end of this relationship, may da best leave for each of us..deep inside our heart, we know the truth, we are lying to ourself all these time..perhaps now we are still..but if we really meant for each other, i believe in miracle dat one day we will meet again..i feel so relieve and i guess i will finally smile again without faking it...life is so beautiful when we are true to our heart, like wut ppl said, if you have a beautiful heart, what you are seeing will be beautiful too...woohoo...actually i'm kinda happy with this decision..i'm single again..i can do wutever i wan...i'm sick of sticking with ted 24/7 n we both certainly didnt like it at all..i believe we will be really good friends like we always be...hehe..i really missed those times back in inti, everyone is single n we are always go out n 'siao' together..haha..no burden..no worries...at all.. but i believe in a certain phase of life or time frame of life, things change and people change, we gotta deal with it as it comes along..i'm happy dat this morning will be da very last time i cry, i'm sick of crying..eew...never liked dat b4..hehe..i missed my friends..i missed hanging out with friends...i missed cooking porridge with friends...i missed half an hour bathing...i missed bbq with friends...n i missed going out late at nite to mamak or beach!! i'm not regret doing anything as ted had given me the best all these while..no complaint..except this shit...hehe..anyway..i really hope he enjoy himself as much as i enjoy myself in this relationship..last nite was da best memory dat u'd given me..hehe...i dun hate anyone..ted knows this better than anyone else...i just cant make myself hate u..i tried..but i cant..damn...haha...anyway..ted.. be true to yourself..u know wut i'm saying...you yourself know better than anyone else wut you want...dun shatter off your dreams...hehe...phew~...i wanna take deep breath n shout..."it's a happy ending.."!!...=)

nEw sKin..

*this is da new look of my blog..hope you guys like it...
*damn..willett got a nice blog...arghh
*anyway...this is a simple n nice one...Blogskins got too many choices...see until my eyes oso pain dee..
=p
*dats all for now..till then...=)

SleepY sLeEpy!!

*so lazy to wake up for class today..aiyks..tired man!! thought of taking a nap..mana tahu!!slept for almost 6 hours..haha..its like at night...hahaha
*showed dat duh-duh sir my project today..glad dat he likes it!! =p
*happy to hear from G dat our magazine was da best in da class..we almost got full marks!!can u imagine dat?
*been thinking to re-build a homepage for myself...i had one when i was in f4? n i cant even remember my homepage address...haha
*hmm...have you guys wondering any friends around you are two-head-snake? =)

Windy Day..

*da weather is so cold today...i'm freezing!!
*met up with lickie yesterday in midvalley..hehe..hope dat we r free to go back to penang with you on June 10...
*watched Madagascar with ted yesterday..well..it's a movie for kids..wut to do..i'm still a kid..haha..i like the animation though...=p
*doing nothing much today...neopets..lazying around...n gotta finish up my project later..hopefully...
*anyone can tell me who have scanner?? i need to scan dat freaking stupid year book cover..
*"gap: i'm not gonna be around in penang during June 10"..WUT?? wuts da point going back to penang then... i thought of meeting everyone up in da same day..but now...aiyks..!!
*Race day: wut happen to you Schuey??

my sisters n i...we do look cute..arent we..hahaha 

during holidays in pg.. 

i'm too free lately...i only take one subject for this summer semester...it's intro to design...one week 3 classes..every class 2 hours each.. we dun have midterm n final for it..just need to pass up 3 projects..so u can imagine how free i am...haha..actually i'm so damn sien..basically i got nothing to do..no text book to study either...haha..so right now my life is just about sleeping, eating, swimming, reading, playing, online chatting, watching movie, n dreaming..haha..

damn...i dunno when only i can go back to penang to meet up my friends...i miss u guys a lot er..n shitty pam n shitty gap not in kl...n dat onneh pam ran away from me..she is in perth now..n she is meeting dat penicillin n dat broomy there...arghh...they even went to esprit to shop..*errghh..damn tak shyiok*..anyway..pammy n elaine..dun forget my gift...ehhee..expecting something from u two...*ngek ngek*.hmm...i'm KINDA perasan..haha...

YippIe..tmr gotta go out for whole day..gonna meet lickie for lunch in midvalley..(aiyks...midvalley again...it's really my second home..haha)..then later evening gonna go ONe-u to watch madagascar...yeahoo..cant wait for it...but but but...gotta spend money again...eiks..

been looking for friends to chat with...ei...gap..where have u been?.. u dun call me in toronto..then maybe it;s becos pretty expensive for da call..so can be excused..but now..u r in penang..!!! ErrRRRrrRrrr....

In the beginning of the 4th year..

wow..the 4th year..finally.. anyway..the 3rd anniversary was great...get to celebrate with ted for whole day without any disturbance..hehe..went to shopping..makan..star wars..n ted get a new tattoo..a nice one!!..really nice..i'm really happy for him too..i really had fun yesterday n this morning was great too when receiving flower from ted..=p.. anyway...3 years...well..not easy..really..not easy..lots of great times together, lots of broken promises, lots of heart brokens, lots of learning experiences too...no regrets in every single day... although ppl trying to convince me i;m stupid for staying in this relationship after all these shits happen...well..u guys are wrong..i'm glad that i'm still holding on to this relationship..i guess we just shouldnt give up something dat we long for easily.. i guess he needed my trust n support da most when he is lost in here... i'm so disappointed at myself for wanting to break up.. i thought we should be there for each other when things like this happen? just take da star wars for example.. anakin did not gain trust from jedi n he dunno whether should trust jedi or da dark side...n his wife dunno wut to do..in the end he joined da dark side as he not sure which path is better for him..so i guess i should be here to do my part (be a good gf) in order not to let him join da "dark side"...muahaha... well..i'm glad this shitty thing happen too..it really makes me stronger n makes me realise a lot of stuff..firstly..dun trust a person easily..n dun ever judge a book by its cover..dun treat a friend like a best friend when u dunno her well...n make sure u dun tell all ur secrets to her..as one day ppl will backstab n betray you without ur notice...yup..some ppl are dat mean..anyway...gotta thanks this shitty ppl..becos of u..i'm now stronger..be it mentally or physically..with your competition..it makes me more alert n awake...with your backstabbing..it makes me to look at things n ppl around more carefully..becos of your existence...i'd learned to cherish my bf more..becos of your action, it makes me realise how childish you are...=p..i guess enough dee kua...hehe..but truthfully...i really learn a lot tru this experience..i dun really care anymore..in my heart..i only have few things dat really matters me now.....ted, studies, US, my diet..=p..

anyway...few words for ted,
darling..thanks for everything..not only for yesterday...but also today and tomorrow..
lots of things we have been going tru, hope dat every each experience had taught us to be more mature n learned from every each of them.. i really enjoy every single lil time with u together..hehe..as u promised to love me more in this beginning of the 4th year, again, i'll have faith in your words and i'll try my best to be an understanding gf ( but i'm always like dat..haha)...lastly..dear...really..thanks for everything..be it good or bad..i really love you..i really do..=)

Penang 2

eish...penang..such a boring place... n it's damn hot here..so damn hot..the weather sucks..errrghhh...anyway...i'm not saying Kl is fun too..haha..nothing much happen in penang..nothing much changes too...dat batu feringgi still looks da same after dat tsunami thingy..hehe..but the stuff here getting more expensive.. i dunno why...da hawker foods..n everything la..i guess Kl stuff even more cheaper..hehe..

anyway..i'm in coffee bean now..i dun really like frap nowadays..cos dunno why it seems to be too sweet for me..so i just ordered an ice tea...hehe..guess what..i met gap's mom here..hehe..i'm already finished checking my mails n all dat..dunno anything else dat i can do..gosh..so boring..but i'm paying 5 bucks for this line..i dunwan to go yet n moreover ted not here yet..

Ishh....i baked a cake for my mom just now before i went out with ted..hehe..a cake for mother's day..blueberry cake..hehe..with help from ted n sis..hopefully it gonna taste good although it looks sucks..A LIL BIT messy...haha...hope dat my mom gonna love it..hehe..dat cake kind of specials becos we put in the messages from me, bro, sis n dad on a paper dat inserted between da layers..hope dat gonna give my mom a surprise...n hoping dat my bro will bring us to Parkroyal for buffet...or equatorial..i dun really mind..as long as not tambun..cos i have enough of dat..hahaha...

dats all for today i guess...later going to have dinner with teds parents..see u guys around...Gap!! i'm waiting for u to come back...=p

Penang...

I'm back in Penang..!!...hmm...food heaven..haha...poor thing baby...u guys dun get to eat da best char koey teow...curry mee...hokkien mee..char koay kak in overseas.....yummy yummy...=p..anyway..i;m now in star bucks..gosh...they dun give free wireless line anymore..we need to pay for it...5 bucks man...er...suck my blood only..hahaha..

i'm thinking..wut can i do during this holiday...else from quickly get the application stuff done...i guess i wanna brush up my english n french...i cant remember much things bout french since last semester...i need someone to practise with me...aiyks...i should have pay more attention in da class...i dun really like french though..i duno..maybe it doesnt sounds sexy enough..i like spanish n japanise..one sounds sexy..the other sounds cute! haha..hmm..gosh..i think i should minor in one language..but i dunno which launguage to choose..eeikss...tough decision..

oh my gosh...yesterday was da greatest day ever..yea..ever...i had so much fun with ted together..we went to Tgi friday..watch movie...shopping..drink wine...i dunno how to tell u guys how much fun we had...hehe..dat lamb chop....i still can taste it in my mouth rite now..da meat was so tender..juicy..fresh...etc etc...haha..ahh..i'm so happppppyyyyyy..!!!

...

gosh..i'm so tired...it's 3 in da midnight now..i'm still awake..nah,..actually i;m accompanying ted studying..hehe..da last paper of final exam ended at last wed..hehe..i;m finally free...been playing games, online, reading a lot during these few days..i find it boring anyway...i've been listening to a lot of musics these few days..gavin degraw..ryan cabrera..boyz ii men..hill songs (thanks to pam)..mario..usher..alicia keys..all 4 one..oh my god..a lot la..hehe..now u guys know how free i am..haha..basically i really have nothing to do..i have finished cleaning my room..(YA RITE!)...finished washing my clothes,..(YA RITE)...finished tidy up my text books n notes..(YA RITE,,,it;s still all over the floor)....haha..erm...i'm just lazy la..i admit dat...haha...anyway.. i found something i really like to do lately....i love to swim when it;s rain...damn nice..damn nice...u just dunno how does it feel..

i'm so excited over tomorrow...after ted exam we can go Tgi Friday for our dinner..i'm damn happy..after so long...we can finally go out again!!....n after dinner gonna watch movie "Guess Who"..heheh..i guess we gonna have great time tomorrow...hopefully...hehe

i'm excited about pam coming over to our place on tuesday too..yea..we can have steamboat together..how nice is it...hehe..i miss her a lot..gotta thank her for sticking with me when i really need someone...it;s really hard to find a friend like her...i cant wait to see her after so long...not really long anyway...haha..

oh yea...ELAINE!!..i'm updating my blog..see..haha..i dunno who do read my blog anyway..but now i know there is someone reading my blog..which is you...haha..i seldom come here..unless someone remind me..or when i feel like throwing everything out from my heart when i got no one to talk to..hehe..n another reason is..i;m quite lazy...yea.."QUITE"..haha...

*sIgh*..i'm missing everyone..where are all my friends...i really miss you guys..a lot alot..i;ve been thinking a lot bout our high sch times..Ghee..Icq..Inti..Penang...oh my gosh...i miss everyone...really hope to see u guys very very soon... =)

haiya!

Hey...friends...i'm here again..hehe...i dunno what am i exciting about also..hehe..anyway..i'm getting better n better...really..trust me..i guess we r suppose to live the life da way it supposed to be...hehehe..i'm really happy today..i dunno becos of wut..really..i dunno...but..hmmp..i dunno also..hahaha..by da way..i;m looking forward for dat ming who is so damn cute..friendly..nice..n yet a bit sarcastic..like to "suan" ppl...haha..em..actually dat ming is always here...just dat she didnt show her speciality all these while....hehe..i miss her also...anyway...just to tell u guys dat..she is back...=)

hmm...Watson..i really love Watson...not any guy named Watson...n i know who u guys should know very well..haha...erm..i love shopping in Watson la..everytime i go there sure very happy n u can see smile on my face..i dunno why..strange..really strange....but i everytime end up buying nothing...haha..hmm..i just go there walk walk n see see la..i guess suppose to call it as window shopping...haha..

anyway...today there was one lady said dat i was from Japan...oh my gosh..haha..she said i look like japanese...thanks auntie..i really appreciate dat..u really bright up my day..=)...hehehe

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the weather nowadays are kind of weird..from sunny day to rainy day..n from rainy day to sunny day..it just suits my mood da best..from happy to sad..sad to happy...everything been going around n round..i dunno..major change in my life..n plenty hopes at da same time too..i dunno..i'm missing him..it's just not even half a day.. life's like dat..i duno..strange.. but i gotta be strong..keep telling myself dat he is there..he is still there for me.. just dat we need a time to give ourself a breath..it;s time for us to grow up...i have dreamt of this situations..n i also can see the bright future of us...be strong ming....you're still the likable person..

ming is back!!

nah...i change my mind...not today for this...=p

TIRED

haih..i'm so tired....tomorrow will be the first day of the final exam...haih..i just finished doing my literature review n self management project....i havent started studying french yet.....and the subject gonna be tested is french..=(..i'm hopeless...die die die......i'm so tired by the way...how am i going to continue studying.....?????

hehe..playing with ted's phone,....ahh..but da quality of the photo blur blur one... 

love...

Love is not alwiz easy, but there's nothing greater. When u r in love with someone, it doesn't mean that you r perfect in any way. We will always have our differences, but love encourages us not to despair. Being in love doesnt mean dat we wont hurt each other, but that is because sometimes we tend to hurt the ones we love the most for granted. It doesnt mean dat we will always think alike, even though we do. but wut loves mean is dat we will be by each other side no matter wut the circumtances is. love is worth the price of pain and hapiness, it may always not be easy, but there's nothing greater than love.

sweet sweet smile..~ 

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Life is boring....it wont be fun when u still have aliterature review paper n a self management paper to write n hand it up on da same day with ur final exam paper...tell me wut to do....=(

finally i realised dat i gotta be more hardworking....especially during this final exam week...but...*sigh*...i'm still lack of motivation....i dunno wuts wrong with myself la..sometimes i'm very alert on doing something, but it wont last long..n it never last long...else for da relationship of ted n me (hopefully it will last very very long until the day i die..haha..)..haiya...i need alot alot alot alot of motivation in order to do something la...i need someone or something push me very very very hard then i only will have da "will" to finish something...i'm so useless la..sometimes i really do think so... hehehe... i hope dat i will have a friend like doraemon so he can always be there to help me...hahaha....ahh..dunno la..so confusing..i dunwan to be free n i dunwan to be busy also....haha...if i'm too free ar...da ppl around me die la...i'll kacau them until they surrender...hahaha...dat's ming power...=p...if i am really busy....hehe..u better dun come near me..i'll scare u away...dat's also ming power....hahahaha....dunwan to crap dee..better go study...becos today i have da "mood" to study..better dun break da mood...hehehe

bf n gf

when girls or boys look for their desire partners, they wished to have someone who will be loyal to them, love them, care for them, be there for them. nowadays, i realised something dat, people r so selfish.. they want their gf or bf loyal to them, but did they really do the samething on their partners? at least, most of the ppl around me, they dont...so sad...( but some r really really loyal to their bf/gf)...i dunno..hmmp..i just dun like ppl betray their love one...if you dunwan to commit into one relationship then u just dun promise ur love one wut u will do...to me..these betrayers r so irresponsible...these ppl are just hurting their love one without realising it...well..i really cant stand this kind of behavior...anyway..this is only my point of view..hehe...well..i mean, dont we have to love our gf/bf as much as possible, try our best not to hurt them? dun just give urself lame excuses such as u r lonely when they r not around (for long distance relationship) or u guys just not "click"...if you already knew u guys r not meant to be together or dun share the same personality then dun mess around with da girl/boy la..gosh..i really cannot stand it....hehee..=p...i wrote this is becos lately, so many ppl around me or around my friends r acting these way...shit man...
*once again..this is only my point of view*......

I am God...

Why am i calling myself god?...ehhhe...there must be a reason...well...i finished doing one psychology lab report and one couselling case study in one night...erm..from 10p.m to 6:30a.m...woohoo..not bad huh..people use weeks to study their past research but i use..erm..*kind of shy to say it out..*.... 1++ hour to read everything..ahem ahem..proud of myself...well..i'm not sure da final result will be good or wut..but i'm confident to tell u dat i'm not confident whether i can get good grades for dat or not...muahaha..sounds funny huh...dats da way i cheer up myself...ngek ngek....actually i'm not proud of myself on doing that u know..i mean finish assignment in last minute...this is a reappy really bad habit...friends who r reading my blog....dun learn from me.. =p .. well...well...well...the truth is..before da night..i'm kinda worry dat i cannot finish my work..nope...it's really really worried...eventhough i always look like happy happy and nothing big deal..but deep down inside my heart...i'm really really worried...haha...i really dun understand myself...sometimes, not dat i wan to be a procrastinater, believe i really want to prepare my works earlier before da due date, just dat i dun have "ohm" or inspiration to write anything on my paper....but...during the last day before da due date of the assignment...da idea..da insparations just suddenly bombard my brain...eeerrr...kind of strange yea...and during dat time is da best time for me to finish up my work...."yeah...i'm dat....*cool*..."...haha..

hmmp..sleep at 6:30 in the morning and i woke up at 12 noon... went to class then to hand up my both assignments...i'm so so damn lucky dat today it;s not our group to present the french sketch...if not i'm gonna die la..i just cant imagine myself doing so much things in just a lil time... lepak-ing in the college...seeing everyone busy preparing for their drama enactment today... i'm really really interested to go have a look on their play..especially valarie group..cos he is dancing man...haha...but before dat have to go to research method n french class..well, lately, i mean these few days, all da lecturers seem not having a really nice mood...even da students too...everyone have loadsa work to do n da lecturers eventually have loadsa assignments to go tru too...hehe..so better dun piss them off...especially dat miss lady winnie cheong..haha...basically i like her la...but sometimes i feel dat she is really really bitchy...dunno whether should like or hate her...quite confuse bout her personality...ahh...dun care bout dat....so after class right away went to see their drama thingy... dat "dean" and "jac" group consider not bad la..i mean good also..haha...the script r funny n their acting is quite ok...hehehe..the group i prefer the most is valarie group...gosh....rachel is really a good actress man...she is really really really good....hehehe...by the time i wanna go back to apartment i only realize dat it was already 9 o'clock...it's nite...hmmp...quite worry dat we cannot get taxi...but..erm..without hue yeen there...sure we can get one taxi....haha..yea..i mean..erm..everytime when she is with us..we sure cannot get a taxi..just wondering why...muahaha....
my hand kinda tired ade...hehe....will keep on wrting n writing bout my daily life on tmr..da next day..n always...( well, i said this a lot of times d...but...everytime also end up...few weeks write once..hahaha..)...well..we will see....

WooHuooOoo..

got a new hair cut today.. i keep my finge short.. i'm quite nervous when i first step into dat saloon...but after dat,..ahh..quite a relief..n everyone praise bout it..i'm so SooOooo happy..=p.. n there's another thing dat makes me happy... dat is testimonial from gap...gosh..it just makes me fly high up to the sky..haha..hmmp..gap..thanks alot....neway, i'm gonna go to baskin robins to get my ice cream now..31% discount for 3 days...yeahoo.....bubye..will be back laterz...=)

Happy birthday Gap..!!

Happy Birthday Gap..hopefully u gonna read this..
hehe..dun worry..i didnt forget ur birthday..i still remember..fresh in my mind...18th of aug,..10:37am..+800Gmt...haha...just dat i dun get to online this few days..so cannot send u my wishes....anyway...wish u all da best la!

sien sien sien

life without him really really boring...=(..wanted to wake up early in the morning but ended up at noon...heh...went to college to collect my result n time table..but the management dun allowed..they asked me to come back again tmr with everyone...arghhh..just one day only they also kira so much...nvm...hehe...i realised dat having lunch alone is so so so wu liao n lonely..argg..i dunwan this happen to me again...when i reach apartment..oh no..someone moving in...er..another psycho..same major..luckily different room from me...haha..anyway she is a nice girl..just same like me..hahaha...after dat go back into room to finish up reading 11 minutes by paulo coelho...i tot i can finish reading it today...but i just cant concentrate...hehe..so ended up online here....ted gonna reach here tonight..yeahoo..finally i can go back to normal life....=p

sob sob

count to ten..my tears going to drop....i dont feel easy today....today is da 1st day that i dun see ted for more than 24 hours since we get together...*sob sob*.. he have to go back to penang cos his uncle passed away..wut a sad thing...i really dun feel comfortable without his companion..i guess i'm too reliable on him..=(

it's just another day

ahh....it's just another boring day to me..i woke up at 2 today..gosh..i'm a sleeping pig...hah..must be last nite played online game until too late...after taken a refreshing shower, ted n me went to midvalley.. *oh my god, this place again*..heh..wut to do..da nearest place from here... bought some "personal stuff" and da ingredients for tom-yam soup tonight....after dinner, i played simpson hit n run for awhile, n ted keep on saying dat i'm so weak at driving car..ok..i admit..i'm suck at this kind of racing game..so.i might just give up...hehhe...there is a girl gonna move into my room soon, so i have to clean up my stuff n move here move there..alamak...how to fit 4 ppl in this master bedroom..i really have no idea... all girls here have so many stuff..it's just impossible...nvm..i dun care...i can only say dat da new girl is so unlucky..heh...

I'm back...

so long never been here.. i dunno wut bring me back here...guess i'm just too lonely lately so i have to find away to share my feelings..i read gap's blog before i came here to type something, he reminded me dat i'd got punk by him..ahh..dats really scared me out.. i just couldnt imagine if everything happen to phei yee..cos she looks so innocent..i'll feel very bad if she got deported from canada..i'm gonna blame myself.. =( .. and..when he mentioned bout the sherbet, it reminds me bout da mc d sundae cup.. haha..i still remember gap n me once discuss wut to mix with da sundae..dried shrimp, sashimi, french fries, they are all in our list..gap even said dat want to blend it all together..now i think about it..it's kinda gross..haaha.. put dat aside...talk bout my life lately...well..life've been suxx n miserable lately..i dunno wuts going on... suddenly god is like treating me so badly..family prob, studies prob..everything just come to me in one time..*sigh*.. nevermind..everything is over..dunwan to think bout it anymore... afterall it makes me realised dat cry aint going to cure anything..and there is alwiz a guy dat gives me endlessness supports..and he definitely makes me feel stronger... gosh..i'm really really miss all my old buddies... sometimes i find dat Kl is such a boring place.. yup..a boring place without any friends of mine.. i really miss those friends back in high sch, tuition centres n inti...until now i still couldnt find any friends in kl dat we are belong in da same channel.. some friends even said dat ted n me is like living in our own couple world... not dat we dunwan to hangout with friends here..well..sometimes u know..u just dun feel like going out...even staying at home whole day online, playing ps2, or swimming..is much more better then hanging out with whole lots of new friends whom u dunno them really well.. i just feel insecure when i;m meeting new friends..u just dunno what r they going to talk bout u behind ur back..n u dunno how much u really impressed them..n u dun even know how much u can count on them..well, maybe i just need more times for myself to accept these new friends here....=)